food food food

aiseyman! dis few days have been really about food! argh! hate it seh! i have been eating alot. and i find myself getting fatter n fatter! shucks! ystd skip class n went to queenstown with cliques. notti me, i noe. -_-' (no need to remind me) shop around, ok here are the few things i want to buy and get. im so coming back to get de pencil skirt. its damn nice la ok! n im coming back to get de shirt! i just love wearing shirt this days! yay! n mayb im coming back to get de nitendo!! haha! i love!! after dinner which is a cup of corn (fattening i noe!), left queenstown. we headed home. dd call. ouh sucha story. for those who knows, knows la right. hmm. im sad and speecless to say anything. -_-'

so 2day, school. nothing special. went to school with zyma. we did'nt notice each other while queing. and when i took de bus, she suddenly pop out of nowhere and sit bside me. hakx. well was nice to finally talk to her la. had been sucha lont time since i talk to her. it was nice gal. we shall meet up altogether soon ok. loves! after dat nothing much happen. boring, i know. ouh wait2.. i so need to tell everyone this. michelle successfully persuaded me to eat ice-cream. actually did'nt even persuade la. i went into cheers just finding my granola bar! sheesh. no luck. cheers don't have my granola bar! argh. n my dear michelle just scream for me and with her innocent eyes, she was like, nisa you find anything. (i havent even answer) you wanna eat ice-cream. (pulling me to de ice-cream place.) i know i very cheapskate but its like 2 for 2.60. you wan not. you want not. i just feel like eating ice-cream ar. accompany me leh. n i just have to go err okok. can can. fattening sia but okok cancan.. i think i should have just do what mr ibrahim would have done, emhem. emhem. haha! so i ate cornetto ice-cream. n pj was so bad, after i buy she was like, shit you sia, you know i cant eat choco, you buy choco right. purposely right! hais. i did not ok pj. i aint that evil. whee. kk, i think i shall start with my healthy diet soon ok. which equals to no chocolate! argh! ling's having fun outside with akhem2. gal, you so have to call me soon n weso have to talk bout it. ouhouh. me n her can actually laugh n laugh n blush n blush whenever the other party say "actually can.."haha. c la gal, aku da tersengih tau pikir kn si dek 2.. actually can.. haha!



*when you said you hate me, i know you don't mean it.*

forgetting him

weekends are over and a bright new week 13 awaits me. bright? yar right! hah! niwaes, last saturday, i met up with dis guy, Jack. his a year older den me. i just got to know him last monday, and he ask me out. aftr considering and making sure i dont look cheap, i met him. we met and we headed to changi beach. to mich: this explains y we were not fated to meet at bugis. haha. so, off to changi. ouh tempat sunguh kenangan. so aniways, we chatted and chatted. and somehow, god knows y, i kept thinking about dd. hais.. its just so sad and i feel guilty dat im not giving a 100% concentration to jack n kept thinking about dd. i just couldn't stop thinking bout him. if i tell you dat i dont hate him, its a lie. well, jack was nice. we went home early cause he was late to meet his members. = wen i reach home, momy kinda scolded me.

momy: y you come home so early? waste of time you know you go out den come home early

nysa(I): huh? go home late, noisy. go home early noisy. aiya dont go home ar next time! haha

momy:(ignoring me)

well, it was a nice day out, but when i came back to reality. i couldn't stop thinking bout dd and just felt like crying. finally calm down when i talk to him. hais.. i hate this feeling. i swear! it will take time for me to forget bout him. but im confident i will do it. with de support from ling2, family and frens. im sure i can. che de bah..

sunday were off to grandfathers place. atoks healthy. *alhamdulillah* den we were off to pp, shop around. and bought my white tote bag from mango. uhh.. i so love it la ok. den we shop somemore, got my tumbler. so im happy 2day. n ya, we played arcaed to! loves! went home n zZzZ after dat..

2day schools was damn tiring. i broke my rule of not sleeping in lectures or tutorial 2day. i couldn't take it and slept at biology lect. our immune system is a total bore i swear! bought curlers with pj 2! n pj did'nt kill me 2day, like i had imagined and dream(or should i say nightmare) ystd! a total relief! ok mayb im a bit TOO paranoid. hah! after school took a train down to TM with wei qi. went to mango and bought myself a jeans. haa! n now im broke. really. saw a bag from 77th street(anoder jeans weiqi?) and taught of buying it. BUT i did'nt bring out my money! ouh shucks! went home aftr dat. i swear my hp is killing me!! mak oi, mati la ku!

suicidal

recap recap recap.. yesterday had lesson for a pathetic 2hours! group meeting cancelED n no tutorials. so, end school @ 2PM. but i had to stay out till 6plus. so pj decided to accompany me to PS to shop. we went to shop n shop and i bought a short, leggings and long sleeve. *loves* saw a bag which is kinda nice. but din't get it. = so hopefully dis sat when i go out, i can find something niceR *finger cross* so after shop, we ate. pj left after eating n i went to meet that hafiy! argh! i will NEVER meet him in de train ever again! HAH! so well, met dearest ling at dhoby ghaut and we were off to orchard to meet SAM SAM! ouh yeah. samantha soh. uhh.. it had been long since ive met her. years i tell you! so we slacked at cineleisure and we ate a sinful desert @ crepes and creame. omg! lava brownie is so damn delicious! ouh, n fattening. -_-' after eating, met rhoma. and dis guy also another long lost friend of mine. eish. was nice to see all four of them la! =)) so we were off to a game of pool. lost to ling but i WON to hafiy!! ouhyeah. i won to hafiy! hafiy dont be sad, you just SUCK!! haha. kiding.=P ended game at 9 and left orchard for home sweet home! was damn tired and de fact dat i have to wake up early in de morning de next day. i still talk to ling! haha. dont know y we still feel like talkin. ling da rindu nisa ekh?? nisa tau.. blush2. we just cant stop talking la. hah! slept after putting down de fone. zZzZ

2day was very reluctant to wake up for class. but thank god i went! lecture was on an SAQ Qn. how lucky can i be? VERY! heE! so lect was on self-destruction or as everyone knows it, suicide! do you know, dieting is a part of suicide? but at de most bottom la of course. =P hmm. suicide ideation is a thought of commiting suicide. n i think almost everyone have ever though of it la right. even i do? n i still clearly remeber that moment. everyone in life just dissapered. i had problems with that current BF. we had major problems n i swear it sucks! ling was'nt talking to me too cause she say my behaviour have change. so none of my closest friends n ppl were not dere for me. n to top it off. my family was also having trouble with me. so with no social support and everyone making me feel like im a TOOT, i couldn't take it any longer. all day long, i thought of suicide. even when im out, i kept thinking if i were not to be in this world, is so much beta for everyone. so i really had a plan n was in a process. but during that moments, thank god, allah came to rescue me. i could hear someone talking to me and telling me to stop what i was doing n just pray. so i did, n i manage to buck up everything. i really thank god for rescuing me that day. =)) manage to solve everything, n thank god you guys still see me in one piece today.=)) ouh well, so much for suicidal ideation. ouhouh. n i did (for fun) de SAD person scale according to that time. n i was suprisingly was at moderate risk. omg!! = ok enough of suicide b4 i start to weep. ok, nisa to emo la. *_* well, after class we had this long 4hours break! ouh gosh! so we had nothing to do, so slept n played eileen's psp n played joey's nitendo! ok! i am so thinking of getting a nitendo la! its so fun. like old school masak-masak like that. FUN i tell you! =P k suda, so we had electives. so for mine, is entrepreneurship! ouh such fun.. me n my group are so confident with our business. lecturer was happy! thank goD! so i suppose that's what business is. you just got to be confident with your business! hakx.

happy kid

ouh.. new life. new blog. new nisa. new everything.=)) best kan best kan?? weeTZ!! im just a happy lil kid this days. ouh yes. i am..monday had my skills test! yeah!! pass pass pass!! it was so damn nerve-wrecking to enter de room, but thank goodness i pass! *alhamdulillah* so now i am ready togo for clinicals and give injections!! wuuts!! anyone wants me to give them injection? *winkx* it wont hurt. i promise. ^-^' so if we have skills, does it really matter if were lucky? mayb luck is 5% of de share. but seriously 95% were all purely skills. right? so people, please filter what you say. to you it maybe nothing, but to others, it hurts ok. real bad actually. so ya.

aniway, tuesday was bio test. n i can tell u frankly, i have a phobia on doing e-quiz. i had done it twice and both de time i failed. devestated you know! so this time, read through de whole book before hand. resulting in sleeping at 3am n a very bad eye bag de next day! wth! = but it all pays off, gotten a C!! weets! imagine from a freaking F to a C. happyness! n seriously upon de time i saw C, i was like, ok.. c is a pass right.. ok.. cool.=)) gosh. i think no one will ever noe how i feel except diana. me n her same case. n both of us were so overwhelm!! ohyeah. n ya, syed. im not putting de pain on ur wond. c'mon la, i swear to you, you can do so much beter on de end of year la! dont stres!

soyeaah.. im a happy kid for now. life is good. =P

test test.=))