(via peaceandlove21)

im BAcK!

*wide smiles*

finally i meet my 2nd bro.

had sooo much fun with irritant.=P

2gether with family minus one plus cuzinn..

when sudenly everyone have grown up

n have their own say.

-____-''

but though we aruge and quarel.

we still LOVE each other.

awwww..

anws go ahead to my FB to view my pics.=)

ouh wels.

muggin with my fyp for nw.

n sucky socio..

havin fabulous group members

dosent help!

--''

cause i tk akan carik org

lain selagi you blum

recover.

essay essay

via (wishful thinking)

Be thankful for every heartbreak, for they were planned. They come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave. Their purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life. And you do.

`eletheowl

just finish bakin brownie for beloved bro

whom im gonna meet up at kota kinabalu 2moro!

cant wait!=D

currently plug into into my earpiece.

n de soothing instrumental love songs are playin.

can i have de 101love instrumental song CD as a gift for xmaS??

hee.

yeaps' dats wad i hear when im stress up.

its just soothes my mind.=)

n for now im doing my review article.

for my Fyp.

dreads*~

but im sure it'll be done soonish.

den off to pack my bag for de trip.

things to bring include: bras and underwear!=P

ok' lets start concentrating.

toodles ya'll.

=D

i have my new found

single girl swag.

n lovin it.

via (fuckyeahprettythings)

im going back to my normal bed time

with some exceptional days.

handphone will be on silent when i sleep.

so no one can disrupt my sleep!

hee..

morning calls

are enjoyed

=P

kiddy me

[[ I didn't talk till de age of four' n couldn't stop till den. Heh. ]]

on suria' deres an advert on nur familia.

where dey talk on lil kids having de tendency to not being able to talk.

or sth like dat la.

kurang pasti i.

so' my dad began to tell me de story.

which i have heard it a couple of time

but didnt mention it here.

so here goes.

=)

so as you can see from de "title"

i didnt talk till de age of four.

not even a single word being said..

so i went to nursery.

n btw' kinderland mp still rocks!=P

n one fine day, i came home talking

n till den i couldn't stop.

i only did stop talking when i was asleep or sick.

n my sleeping habit?

i sleep anywhere.

literally anywhere.

they found me on de bike, toilet, pram. anywhere.

so when dey hear silence,

dey search de whole house for me..

terharu i..

=)

hah' till now.

dey live up to de same expacts..

when im quiet in de house,

dey noe im havin a prob'

n dey will automatically drop ques for me to tell them wad happen.

heh.

smiles to de family~

so, i wonder if dey ever regretted dat day.

n if ever my friends regretted having me able to talk.

huhuhu..

my friends also get de idea..

whenever i just feel like shuting my mouth for one day.

at least one of dem' hu are close or not..

will ask me if im sick.

hee..

loving acquintance i have~

ok. so regrets or no regrets.

im glad i can talk..

lalallalaala..

toodles ya'll..

i love playin

catching.

=P

"Isn't it ironic? We ignore de ones who adores us, adore de ones who ignore us. Love de ones who hurts us and hurt de ones who love us"

-Facebook.

yer.. ironic sunguh..

-_-''

him: she's very nice.. i think she's a nurse..

her: *smiles* hmm. yeaps. i am a student nurse.

him: see. no wonder shes nice. youre very sweet.. thank you.

her: *smiles widely*

allalalalaa..

syg kw tau..

can i steal you for one day?

one day je..

hee..

youre de sweetest and most politest of dem all.

and you made my day=D

take good care of adik okies lil' one!=))

Dekni gile kat kau

ke dik?

i love my mom=))

her mom: "ala, guys come and go lar.. "

4lowed by long talks on relationship.

baik la mama..

thanks for de advice yeR!=D

means his not meant for you

move on ar..

lalalala..

via; my tickled pink

just to let all my friends know

how im doing..

im OKAE!

perfectly fine.=))

bout de previous negativity posts??

they are just cause of de weather..

mood swings.

hee..

anw, thanks for askin

hee.

=)

"u nak buat i benci

you ekh?"

`mayb?

"Maybe it's true what they say. There are those people you encounter in life who you never really get over. No matter how many other better people you meet, people who treat you better and love you better, in the back of your mins, there is always that person who you can't quite forget. "

half day of workin with my dady is tiring.

seriously..

im getting hunch-back sooner or later..

heh.

something is bothering me.

but i noe, i have to get a grib on my life

before questioning de other.

de kids are keeping

me preoccupied.

bird-bird bye.

shutup and let me go

have you ever had a friend who just recovered from a break-up?

or is suffering from acute depression? (=P)

how they keep on talking about their previous relationship

over and over again.

and become very whiny over small lil things.

de sudden outburst of attitude (both visible and invisible)

and every SINGLE day cause youre stuck with her,

you have to hear her rant and become emotionally depressed

over something which is over?

one minute or lets say, one week ago she was perfectly fine..

laughing, cursing and ever ready to move on.

and suddenly today, she's down again

n you know you have to start hearing her whining all over again..

feel like asking her to just shut de hell up right?

or just feel like giving her a slap on her face telling to her to wake up!

like hello!! its over!! fuck him! fuck you! SHUT UP!!!

ever faced in that situation?

now im that girl.

i tried to control myself and keep quiet and not mention anything..

but i couldn't.

all i could do was go on n yek yek yek over things.

n im glad 2 of my friends cum cuzin stayed on.

Adda n Diana; I love you gals.

thank you so much.

=))

im trying to stop..

trust me..

i am..

all i need now,

is my appetite and my sleep back..

before my dady or mom talks to me bout aneroxic and how pretty i am now.

*smiles to de family~

i miss ranting to my darling and sygs.

via meet-ups or phone.

miss de long hours talking to you gals on de phone all night.

ouh. please la meet up soon can?

so.. subconsciously or whatever it is..

you really love him huh?

-speechless.

No im not jealous

nor im angry..

im just Disgusted..

vomitus bag please.

fuck you

apple

"Girls are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the trees. The boys don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they just get the rotten apples that are on the ground that aren't as good, but easy. So the apples at the top think there is something wrong with them, when in reality, they are amazing. They just have to wait for the right boy to come along, the one who's brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree."

-tumbler

=)

had a blast this weekend. its always fun to have your cousin sleepover.

the never ending talks, laughter and not forgeting farts n burbs n some unsightly stufs..

haha. yes. farts. =P

bake cupcakes for adda's mom with fulll of tensions from my mom.

something tells me that my confidence level is goin down.

but glad everything turn out well for a first-timer.=D

nuff said. im glad my appetite is slowly toning down.

oreo ice-blend sedaps ar!!

lalallaalaa..

toodles ya'll.

i have to get over

the sound.

fast.

love yourself

"De lil' things that make you different are de things that make you beautiful."

-beautiful girls.

you don't need to be a beauty queen.

skinny, busty, tall, mampat, bla bla bla..

you are beautiful de way you are.

don't let anyone change you..

ive learn from my past relationship,

and if ever a guy or whoever can't accept you for who you really are.

they dont deserve de best of you.

im sick and tired of hearing other girls better den me.

i shall be who i wana be.

and i love who i am. (ok, self-proclaim sikit)

that said,

hi.. im anisa..

im a short immature girl and im a very messy kid.

ouh.. n i know i look 15-16 but really i am 19!*giggles

nice to meet you=))

ouh, im not only talking

bout you.

tumbler are loves

i used to miss you so much

but it never seemed like you missed me.

And I guess because of it I stopped missing you

family

someone ask me what significant, event which happen that make you love your family so much?

family which includes your nuclear family, and extended family.
extended family which include patrilineal and matrilineal.
in simple form, your maternal and paternal side..



and i answered


always being there for me.

my family had never fail to be dere for me all de time.
supporting me and backing me up whenever i fall..

so we continued and study boout de
functions of de family.



i guess im just very thankful that i have such forgiving family.
i never think that i had ever made my family proud of me.
i never taught of a time where my parents can say "that's my girl"

but yet, they have always been dere to catch me when i fall
and give me 100% support of everythin i have done.
and de most important thing..
accepting me for who i am.
=))

n a promise

everyday i'll try my best to do something
and make my family smile.
if dats de only thing i can do..
i shall do it everyday..

n ps.

i decided to stop waiting

at de place i use

to wait for

you..

de eyes

an old friend of mine saw this pic

while chating with me online.

"u looking kinda sad, and kinda tired in the display pic"

"senyum pun, mcm berat gitu...mcm using lots of energy to try to smile"

like real?? it can be seen in my pics?

sheesh..

i guess my eyes says it all..

im tired.

i keep wanting to fall asleep in de afternoons.

my giddy spells are coming in.

my bedtime is not regular

n at times i cant fall asleep thinking bout everything.

n sometime Mr. T put me to sleep'

n therefore you see de eyes puffy in de morn.

sheesh~

i have to stop thinking too much'

start letting go off all negative emotions.

get back to my bedtime which is bed by 1o.30' latest 11.

ahh.. i think dat will do de trick.=)

ouh n maybe switch off my phone.

neh' just switch to silent.

cause i know,

de one dat i wana talk to,

wont call.

n thousand of irritating ones will call n disturb.

eish..

ouh wells.

good night everyone..

who say moving on

was easy?

fruit cake

just finish something therapeutic.

i guess theres something nice bout

measuring, sifting and put everything on high speed.

bam bam bam.

n knowing that you cant be upset on anything

n just have to keep on smiling

even though you doubt de ending will even be nice. =\

my fruit cake in de oven set for an hour @ 150`C

my hands and leg have at least a lil of butter.

typical messy nisa.

wad do you expect?

hee..

so im now patiently and keenly

waiting for it to be ready.

n hopefuly it'll turn out well.

heh.=P

i feel like asking

n' get over

it

imy

everyone craves for her

but she only craves for one person.

his not perfect.

moody on rainy days

hot-tampered on somedays

cheeky and pampered de rest of de time.

but why does her heart

keep falling back to de same guy?

why was it so easy for her to

fall in love and got her heart broken

by de same guy?

im abit hangover by Mr. T.

therefore i guess, you see this post.

had alot of reflection goin on.

and all i can keep wonderin is why.

bloody why.

why must dey even invent a word "why"

ahh..

i really dono why de sudden breaking down after sucha long time.

when usualy i use to take dat kinda comment, easily and laugh my ass out.

phuck. i need to stop.

but when?

tell me if youre done

with de game.

finally went out with a guy=))

cheese fries were de only thing i ate de whole day.

dis just means that i can actualy go on with my one-meal-diet.

dat is if i want and can be bothered to even do it. hee.

de guy's waist as we discovered is smaller den mine.

ahh.. *freaks~

nvrm, woman with big waist deliver their child easily=D

ouh wells, day was amazingly nice although it sucks when goodbye was to be said.

sheesh~

well, my muffins are out from de oven n dey are now in tupperwears.

lovingly sinful *_*

next up is fruit cake.

so how do you get this right when your previous cake was not perfect?

ahh.. hopefully de outcome will be good. =)

im craving for donuts.

im not manja.

i just need company.

and

.....

i just feel like eating it like NOW.

plz

*innocent puppy dog eye look~

i switch off my handphone

to get a lil peace from all

de pleas and drama..

how to say no?

nicely...

First day of boredom begins.

i so need to get a job soonish.

resume send online have never be replied,

only once.

so im goin down this next few days to walk-in n' apply.

classified are my new found loves. =D

i feel like doing something with cupcakes.

ahh.. we shall see if one day my dreams will come true.

or is just another big dream i have to trash.

ouh. we'll see.. we'll see..

weekends were awesome.

day spent well with maternal side. =))

talk to my aunty bout my whines about

relationship VS parents.

not dat my parents are against it.

dey are open. well kinda.

bottom line is

im just not ready to be a mommy. =P

well besides that.

im happy over something.

but im not gonna keep it high.

cause it'll just end up making me look like --> -__-''

so now im like =S (if dere was even dat kinda emo=P)

it had been 2months since ive last went out with a guy.

so please karma,

be nice to me.

stop playing de game.

plz..

ouh wells,

shall go toys'r us with adda after her skul.

n hopefully get something worth while over de trip.

n now, im thinking OCBC or DBS?

de only thing i love bout OCBC is, its in red..

final touches of my red collection.

not dat im realy goo goo ga ga' ing over it la.

hee.

lame reason nisa.

takin' care lovelies=))

just so you know,

was waitin' for

your call.

ive canceled something from my wishlist=))

alhamdulillah..

n now my left leg and hands are free..

suker=))

skuls in.

an hour a day sucks to de max.

really..

starting to love to bake.

marble cake minus de hangus(abit) equals to sedap.

looking forward for my wednesdays @ siti's delight.

viewing accidents via online are terrible thing to do.

someone met up with an accident

but alhamdulillah youre home safe.

no wories, you still look good without de few skins.=P

shall wait for one day to come.

ok. done.

4am.

hope what my friend

say is true.

hoping.

glass

Relationships are like glass.

Sometimes it's better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together..

ok. enough.

take care people.

wake me up when

it's over.

hari rayer

SELAMAT HARI RAYER


kawan kawan!

i'll take this opportunity to say im sorry to everyone out dere.

yes, i may have been a lil irritating bitch.

crapping. irritating. noisy lil bitch.

heh.

so if ever i have done anything wrong to you.

nk menyusun jari i nie, utk minta maaf kat you all you all..

=))

hari rayer with family minus 1

have been pretty awesome.

my room is all spanking clean right now.

im so proud of dat you know!

huhuhu..

im getting real bored at home.

deres not much things to be done.

im just awaiting for replies from all de companies i send my resume to.

lembabs ar krg. =\

so besides dat,

im just looking wondering thinking about everything in life.

reflecting bout everything.

heh.

ok no more emo for me.

im doin perfectly fine.

cant you see de smile?

*winks~

p.s.

your boyfriend's flirting

with me.

karma karma karma

"see la. last time people really want you, you break their heart. make them cry. see now your turn to cry"

this was said to me after telling syuk about my fail relationship

(of course in malay and harsher ar.=\)

ahh..

life is playing de sweetest game called karma.

i like.. -_-''

soyes.

i had break guys heart.

and now its my turn.

i got my heart broke by de guy i loveD.

guys are making me cluless these days.

one day, i smile.

de next day im just okae...

suke la..

ouh wells. living by de day.

single's life for me..=))

n yes boy,

im not ready to be someones girl now.

so, before you say i hurt your feelings,

get it right ok!

mane semua pergi ekh?

sedih aku.

dats about it.

couldn't find de perfect poem to translate how i feel.
so here is de one.
specialy from me.



what can i do to make things right?
cause im just lying here awake all night
thinking when youre coming back to hold me tight
and to tell me that everything will be alright.=)


you used to tell me im not like the other girls
im special in all ways.
now you tell me im a mess
n all im left with is why's

will do whatever it takes
for you to be happy
even if it hurts
im willing to take de plunge

now im taking a step back
while i see you smile
thinkin how de smile
use to be mine

i guess you'll be okay
with de hands of another.
take her on de cable car ride
i hope she'll hold on you tight

'cause she'll be de reason i cry
every single night
thinkin bout what we use to had
that makes me go on cloud nine.

all im left is memories
off you and me
both bitter and sweet
you use to be my honey bee

all i wish for now
n ever hope for
is for you to come home
n be my one and only bum bum.

ouh. n i did something so tk tau malu.

so dat he'll be able to read this.

heh.

ouh well..

after this.

im goin to stand up and smile.

thanks for de show.=))

brighten me

up people.

=P

puase start!

to all muslim friends out there:

selamat berpuase people!

its time for us to be more patient.

no more vulgarities and gossiping.

for a girl, do you think you can?

hehe..

im sure we can do this!

all de best okie!

*senyum senyum selalu*

so im on my exams period right now.

3adult nuring + 1psych paper more.

*sighs*

im not really into stress mode,

not until de eve of de exams.

heh.

ouh.. after my socio paper yesterday,

rewarded myself with chocolate waffles.

sedaps!=))

evening, vomited it out.

shucks!

told my mom.

mom: you ar, exam period only. stress stress den sick! just relax la, rest!!

me: -___-'' yer.. resting..

lil bro: y ekh kakak sick sick? kakak study too much ekh?

me: *feeling2 proud*

mom: she study alot? nonsense!

-__________-''

n dats y i love my family?

heh.

alhamdulillah im ok today!=))

ouh wells.

lesson learnt;

no immediate squating to do your shoelace after jogging.

=)

ouh wells.

im directing my mind to HS3113 now.

-adult nursing 5-

care of the acutely ill & musculo-skeletal disorder.

n im still @ triaging.

ahh...suke la..

so since everyone is on exam periods.

well, mostly..

a big shout out to you guys!

all de best!

good luck!!

ouh p.s.

dont mind my background.

will change it after exam period.

promise!

hee.

k..

toodles..

jagan lupe bangun untuk sahur yer krg!

as long as youre happy,

i'll be ok being just

another

apple.

kentals to de kentals.

nk bitch, bitch boleh..

tkmo pijak kepale sudah..

jangan pai minah aku terkelua.

selamat korang..

part nie tkde ms nisa nice.

dont make me turn de

table around

phucker

darlink dangdut.

*a featured friend*

someone who you feature on your page

is someone meaningful to you..

someone worthful of..

senang kate, you like dat person, you feature la. ok?

k. settle.

i was a lil busy body.

so i happen to go on this website n check out someones profile.

another shocker..

my hands start to shake.

my kness starts to tremble.

featured friend was her.

i knows it take alot for you to feature someone.

but why her?

someone you told me you use to hate..

do you even know dat she was featured somewhere else..

featured on anti minah and kenings 2.0 on FB?

yes.. anti-minah..

minah la ok?

but as of 090809 (date lawa pe? hee)

it was being remove.

so ouh wells..

im not goin to be rude and bitch about her..

cause im not a bitch..

i shall just accept de fact dat hey, you like dat girl..

n im sure she have more in her such as her heart.

den just her body.

n yes u, die tk lawa ok..

keep on to your quest on getting another pretty ex can?

heh..

but trully, im upset..

bkn nye ape la..

but why after me,

you go to her.

y her seh?

wad does she have dat i dont?

gosh..

tkper la kns..

dere a things dat im gonna keep within me.

till den,

not in de mood tu kn; just smile ok..

everything will be alright..

my family and friends

are here for me

n dats all dat matters.

manis

1year of being single
im sick and tired of getting to know guys.
im tired of having to impress a guy.
im just plain lazy.


so on June 15 it all started.
a msg was sent by me to him.
and email were exchange,
and dere you go..
a new friendship found.
=))


he was in school and im at home.
chatted and chatted.
and a funny guy i met.
2days pass and he pass him his number.
i acknowledge it by sayin good night pakcik.


we began to sms each other de whole day.
i lebih happy layan eu dari layan my facee..
ok. i like.*_*


began to talk on de phone till wee hours.
nisa's bed time @ 10.30PM was long 4gotten about.
laugh. chat. talk. talk. laugh. laugh.
=P


someone got bored in school.
so i ask him to think about de weekends..
and he ask if he could spend his weekend with me.
so dgn tk tau malu nye nisa, i say bleh2! hee. =)


so we did.
met him up on June 20.
for de first time i was so scared.
i wanted him to be impress by me.
kept on thinking on what to wear.
got damn nervous

called ling and ask on every single thing.
just to impress you, my boy..
so finally tone down and wait for you.
fell asleep while waiting for you; traffic jam ar eu.. lgpn cck jauhs seh.
-_-'
so finally met you under my void deck.
you were on de phone.
ok nisa nervous up2.
so you smiled and i smiled back.
so we left tamp and continued our journey to suntec city.
cut de story short.
you send me home.
i thank you for de lovely day out.
n quoted telling you dat
i never felt as comfortable with a guy like how i was to you..
n really i do..


so we began talking
meeting up at de slightest moment we could.
you brought me to places i never been to..
we
laugh
laugh
laugh..


got to no more of you:
you dont smoke, drink, club, n much2 more which im all smiles about..
ouh n dis one paling best..
you dont eat spicy and you dont eat seafood!
baik per??
whee..
nisa suke!=))


so we were close.
and i realise dat i found de one dat i wan to spend my life with.
i know, its damn fast but all i wanted was you..
you you and you!!


after a whole 1year of single life..
i taught i met de guy for me.


began to tell you how i feel and you told me de exact same things.
i melted deep inside
and wonder if you are really de one..
you reassured me time and time again, telling me dat you love me
n one day we wll be 2gether..


so on this day, a month ago..
July 4th
we were at mount faber park; de usual place we sat.
we knew dat dat day, was de day we had to be 2gether..
you got down on your knees..

*nisa cair*
and ask me to became you girlfriend.
you promised you'll never hurt me,
take care of me.
n de most importantly
love me...
so i accepted and sealed it with a kiss. =P
i promised you back.
almost on de verge of tearing,
but of course, nisa maintain!=))


due to de date factor.
i wanted de official date to be July 5.
050709.
"we'll beat de odds" we said.


so dere you go..
a new relationship, hoping to grow..
my frens, relative and even family
were happy for me.
you guys look sweet 2gether. =))


i got so comfortable with you..
cared for you..
loved you..
protect you..
little did i know,
you were a grown boy..
you know how to look after youself.
stupid me..
what was i thinking?
=\


you got irritated of me.
being so clingy and just being so dumb.
you got irritated of every single thing i did.
even my call and sms was a painful sight for you..


i kept on asking you why..
and finally you told..
so i decided, i want to change..
klu dgn lelaki lain kn, nisa say gi mampos. ngn u, i beg u..
i beg you for another chance to prove myself wrong.
by that time your status had changed to single.
i cried my ass out for you..
n i know theres no point crying.
all i had to do was to bloody hell change..


so i taught i did.
i became more patient with you.
trust you as much as i could..
ignore criticism from you..
all de $%&&$%#lalallalaalalaalallaa@$%$$$%&*^%#(#!!!, i ignored..
i knew i deserve all this from you who had tolerted with me all this while..
i stayed up de whole night thinking about you..

1 week pass
n when finally i open my bloody mouth and ask you if you love me..
dere you go..
ive got de answer i wasnt expecting for..
can we just be friends for now..
my heart just stop beating and eventually tears start rolling.
heartbroken. crashed..
n everything you could imagine..
why why why..
all i could ever ask was why...
but of course, i did not, n just shut my mouth n fall to my bed thinkin and thinking..
i wanted to talk to you, but you told me you were tired..
n i said ok..
last word from you; nyt nyt (you know i love it when you say it like dat.=P)


why did you have to go so soon??
now all i could do, is wish for you to be happy..
happy with your friends and you love ones..
of course im sad..
i truly am..
all i could think about is you..
i miss you..
i miss hugging you close..
i miss it when you hug me after every single fight we had..

i miss looking at you fall asleep while i hear your heartbeat n de waves of de sea.
i miss when your hands are holding to mine when we are on de bike.
it makes me go googoogaagaa over you.
heh.
i just miss your cuteness and your manjeness..
youre still a cute lil boy to me. =P


but dont bother bout me,
i'll be alright..
im good at faking a smile.
no worries..


for now, im not sure how to move on..
im keeping still here..
i really dono how to get back up..
so..
i'm letting you free
n if we are really meant to be
you'll come back to me..
right??
hopefully..
wishin wishin wishin..


so dere you go..
the story of *MaNis*


and for you,
i really have nothing against you..
you told me we could be friends..
n im happy dat you want it to be dat way.
so if deres anything in life dat bothers you,
gimme a call ok..
or sms ke.
or msn with me ke..
anything. i'll just be right here..

n even if you have nothing.

friends say hi to each other n hang out kn..

so we are friends right?

i hope we are


so status change..
i use to be single n loving it.
den i became happily attach n loving it..
now im singleFULLSTOP!
im not loving anything about being single.
phuck.. it hurts alot..

im really drained by de tears which is coming out from my eyes..
stop please?

timecheck: 10.31PM and i still have not began my essay which is due 2moro..
baik nisa..

im getting insomnia..

i cant fall asleep..

n when i do, its just for 2hours, n i'll be awake again for de nest 1-2hours staring at de walls..

so de next time you see me, taking a nap in de afternoon.

tkmo disturb k..

heh..

so toodles ya'll..

this chest pain

is not helping

at all.