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2010-08-16T23:19:00.002+08:00

“ There are things in life that never last. But the truth is, you never lost them until you let them go. Life is about choice: hanging on, holding back, letting go. Some things do last if you just let them, and if they let you. ”

#inthemidstofthinking

hello Blog!

i have long to see you' n you have long to see me.

so hello! hehe..

so just a lil update on life.

Alhamdulillah my life in Nyp as a nursing student

is finally over.

yes' i had finally graduate!!

*Screams and jump out loud*

Which equals to i survive 3months of pure shift work in ward 64.

which includes Night duty.

de best ward and will always be! dey mould me to be a better nurse.

thank you nurses! thank you doctors!

thank you patients' both sweet and nasty.

for all of you had shown me de meaning of nursing and had

groom me to be a better person then yesterday.

n i'll bring the lesson i've learnt to life and whil cherish all moments with all of you..

BEST best BEST!!

For now' im cleaning and running errands for home..

ouh yes' SELAMAT BERPUASE TO ALL MY MUSLiMS FRIENDS!

no more vulgarities ekh..

maki2 one corner ok!

no gossip2 jugak.

lepas buka' gossip la krg..

during' tahan okie!!

i love you all=)

n maybe i'll be back with my siti's delight team.

im just awaiting de time dey need me. hee..

so im still single

n guys never fail to hurt me.

ouh wells' moving on=')

tommorow shall go hunting for all my baking needs.

hopefully i'll get everything..

for now' i shall watch or go to sleep.

selamat malam kawan2..

it will take me time

to move on.

i'll try.

2010-05-14T17:05:00.002+08:00

via; inthemidstofthinking

cause to me everyone is beautiful in their own way.
so if you just had a bad day'
SMiLE cause youre worth more den dat grumpy face.

anws' its TGIF today.
so today everyone should be smiling..

i cant wait for 630PM
so i can get ready and change and go to the airport.

cause im goin ja ja ja JAKARTA!!
wuuutts..

though im goin for just 3days
its still worth de break!

im goin to shop for my cloths for rayer
n shop for any other thing that catches my eye.
hee..

take care dear people'
love nisa..=))

note to self';

you're a

confuse

girl.

2010-05-03T21:23:00.002+08:00

Look Closer - A Nurse's Reply
Liz Hogben

What do we, you ask, what do we see ?
Yes, we are thinking when looking at thee!
We may seem to be hard when we hurry and fuss,
But there's many of you and too few of us.
We would like far more time to sit by you and talk,
To bath you and feed you and help you to walk,
To hear of your lives and the things you have done;
Your childhood, your husband, your daughter, your son,
But time is against us, there's too much to do-
Patients too many and nurses too few.
We grieve when we see you so sad and alone,
With nobody near you, no friends of your own.
We feel all your pain, and know of your fear
That nobody cares now your end is so near.

But nurses are people with feelings as well,
And when we're together, you'll often hear tell
Of the dearest old Gran in the very end bed,
And the lovely old Dad, and the things that he said,
We speak with compassion and love, and feel sad
When we think of yours and the joy that you've had.
When the time has arrived for you to depart,
You leave us behind with an ache in our heart.

When you sleep the long sleep, no more worry or care,
There are other old people, and we mist be there.
So please understand if we hurry and fuss--
There are many of you and too few of us.

a very sweet and real poem by a nurse.

yes yes.. well said in a poem.=)

side note' my fav uncle passed away yesterday.

now no more uncle to disturb..

no more kacau2.

uncle! gua rindu lu la!

lu mana pegi..

*sobx*

n my patient who i admitted died 2day morning..

now no need to advice

'uncle' you have to turn turn.. later your pantat got red red..'

*SOBS*

please please' no more last offices tomorrow please.

doin in-charge 2moro. so do good to me ok ward 48?

ok nytes ya'll..

i'm being the old me. whoever who wanna

say anything be my guest.

cause people like you'

dont matter to me.

2010-04-24T23:27:00.003+08:00

make it bigger if you wish to see..

today was a pretty wet typical saturday.

where all plans backfired

and guys are just a pain in de arse..

but side note..

my roti john cheese @ changi made my day.

blessed to have a family who knows just how to make me smile..

N goin on to FB and seeing the best wall post ever.

made my day really2 awesome..

its just nice to know that im blessed with wonderful people around me

whom i noe will be dere to catch me.

n people who loves me..

i swear i could have teared more.

esp after watchin a video linked by my bro..

SYTYCD video dance on breast cancer..

talkin bout cancer.

everyday hearing someone suffering from cancer

is a real pain..

patients who are in pain crying for help.

along de corridors are just relatives crying away.

trying their best not to show their love ones(de patient) their emotions..

having to clean up someone who pass away of cancer.

as young as 23 yrs old.

its real sad..

so' be thankful for whatever you have now people..

cherish those around you.

love them whole heartedly...

n if possible..

show it..

so again..

Thank you family..

Thank you ADDA' Kak Nana N Diana..

Thank you roti john cheese..

for these 3 things made my day special

n makin me smile..

for i love you all much2..

im going to sleep now.

experementing on a new cream cheese brownie CM..

nytes..

i gave you a chance

you blew it.

2010-04-11T22:45:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow shall be de start of my clinical postings.

1month of gerontology @ SGH ward 48

followed by

3months of PRCP @ hopefully de ward ive asked for.

i really hope my skills are not lost.

since i have long to be out on attachments.

well' at least i still can fit in my 2unis...

de rest are all too short n tight fitting.

see la' last time miang wad..

sigh..

Well' all de best to those doing their attachments 2moro..

see you in de hospt peopLe!

Love Love..

now im getting

worried.

2010-04-10T22:35:00.002+08:00

Insouciant. Ephemeral Infatuation

(via; purplefagottree)

"Go easy on yourself, for the outcome of all affairs is determined by Allah’s decree. If something is meant to go elsewhere, it will never come your way, but if it is yours by destiny, from you it cannot flee "

– Umar bin al Khattab [Radi-Allahu anhu]

Had lunch with family minus 2.

Lil bro ask me how many ex-bf i had.

so i said 6' n my elder bro was happy dat he was not as bad as me.

-__-''

ouh' terima kasih yer..

arman: nan' youre too small to even noe what is love..

adnan: yes' i noe!

arman: so wad is it?

adnan: Love is an infatuation feeling dat two people have..

nisa: no' dat is not love. infatuation is de feeling i had for dat 6' i have yet to find love.

i was expecting symphaty? but i got a massive laughter from de table.

phuck..

i feel so good.

heh..

ouh wells.

when for retail theraphy with my mom after lunch.

i fell in love with alot of things but i have yet to buy dem.

so 2 pairs of jeans or a pink sling bag?

2moro shall go starbucks with addasyg.

people have been clever-ly asking me out de previous week.

cause by mon' i'll be pack.

which means' no more time nisa.

sighs.

ok' nytes ya'll..

wherever you are' whenever it's right
you'll come out of nowhere
and into my life..
-Michael Buble'

2010-04-08T22:57:00.004+08:00

Fetch lil bro from school today.
Since im no longer workin and waiting for attachment..
dad keeps me occupied by giving me this task.
which im not complainin..

since dere was no space along de roadside'
i had to park and walk.
so with my selekehness' everyone taught that i was a maid.
ok whatever..

so instead of everyday looking at motorist'
i look at de pri skul kids 2day.
n ive realise how heavy each n everyone bag is.
seriously' what do dey bring?
you noe' kids who are way shorter' n smaller den me
carrying a bag which i dont even think i can carry..

my secondary schol bag was half de size.
dont mention tertiary'
i only bring a bag to school so that my mom believes that im headin to skul.
thank god for tertiary lockers!

ive ask my lil bro bout lockers.
he said there was but dey are not really allowed to put most of de things dere.
so why lovker again?
ouh wells..

ouh' n tallin bout my lil bro..

im am so happy on how my lil bro cake turn out to be.

my experiment was successful! alhamdullillah..

anyone up to be my next experiment? =P

attachments up next week.
final lap final lap.
n yes' i can do it. *smiles nervously*
so' surgical stockings' black sweater n stationaries are on my list.
n maybe a bag? hee..

ok' nytes!

tell me to go
n i will go.

2010-03-28T22:48:00.003+08:00

(via weheartit by suicide-bee)

"They love you but they are not your lover

They care for you but they are not from your family

They are ready to shair you pain but they are not in your blood relations.

They are your FRIENDS

True friends scold like a DAD

Cares like a MOM

Teases like a SISTER

Irritates like a BROTHER

and finally loves you more then a LOVER."

sent by my dear friend Nasran'

who loves sending random msgs whenever wherever.

n hell yeah' it makes me smile.

thank you Piglet, you made my day!=))

ok' nisa needs to sleep now.

so that she can be fully awake while she works admin tomorrow..

im so feeling2 de akak akak admin!=)

n dat equals to answering all calls which are expected to be from de malay community..

'hi' boleh saya bantu?'
lar.. helps alot alot please??

i think im just gonna write a script in de morn after stock take.

yes yes. dat will be my *things-to-do*

ok selamat malam semua!

did i mention' i love you all? *trallalaa*

screw you minah'

thank god your mat is

sweet enough to apologise

for your wrong doings. bad minah bad!

*bluekx!

2010-03-09T22:55:00.003+08:00

(via fuckyeahgirlythings )

i noe i have seen the sprinkles in

production room de other time.

shall try doing it de next time'

when donuts are on de list of TODO.

wonder wad is up 2moro.

besides cake modular #o1.

side note'

had dinner with my mom at arnodls.

im still loving the buns..

buns bun bun bun bun!

after seeing much couples.

couldnt resist to stop my mouth from askin my mom

how she knew my dad was de one..

so she just told me her wild funny love story.

n i just said

"mak oi' kecoh ar mama. your story can make drama noe.."

n i just told her bout de guy im thinkin off.

hah' ok sungguh random.

off to bed' shall wake up early to make jemput jemput..

i noe how to make noe' heh..

sweetest dream love!=D

Why cant i give in and say

height dosent matter?

SMILE!=))

2010-03-08T00:14:00.004+08:00

(via; 29daysofesc )

SmiLe=))

"Smile tho' your heart is aching,
Smile Even though it's breaking,
When there are clouds in the sky- You'll get by,
If you Smile through your fear and sorrow,
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun come shining through- For you.

Light up your face with gladness,
Hide ev'ry trace of sadness,
Altho' a tear may be ever so near,
That's the time (thats the time) you must keep on trying,
Smile- What's the use of crying,
You'll find that life is still worthwhile,
If you just smile.

Ohhh Oooh Yeah

That's the time (thats the time) you must keep on trying,
Smile- What's the use of crying,
You'll find that life is still worthwhile,
If you just smile.

Smile tho' your heart is aching,
Smile Even though it's breaking,
When there are clouds in the sky- You'll get by,

That's the time (thats the time) you must keep on trying,
Smile- What's the use of crying,
You'll find that life is still worthwhile,
If you just
You'll find that life is still worthwhile,
If you just smile. "

-Glee Cast

wipe your tear'

stop worrying.

n just smile..

smile for de people you noe care for you..

lots of love sweetS!=)

i hope one day we can

bump into one

another.

2010-03-04T22:57:00.003+08:00

watch Dear John with cuzin cause dey canceled my picnic.
ok gals' you officially owe me a meet up!

anws'
de show was awesomely nice!=)
very nice romantic love show.
who captures a young man with an autistic dad and a sweet looking lady.
young man who serves his country by being a soldier out of de uS.
but basically like all love shows' guy n gal lives happily ever after.
=\

ouh well' 3 out of 5!
n guys' dont forget to lend a shoulder to your gal.
n bring tissues!=P

throughout de movie'
i taught about my brother
whos serving his ns in brunei.
eish' i miss him la ok..

n after THE PUPIL on ch5.
there was a short advert on army.
whee.. nice nice..

somehow' dont ask why.
but i do feel proud of spore armed forces!
somehow makes me feel so protected if ever something might happen.
n if any of you think' that nothing will happen.
read on..

"SINGAPORE (AFP) - – An unidentified terrorist group is planning attacks against oil tankers in the Malacca Strait, one of the world's busiest shipping lanes, the Singapore Navy and a shipping association said Thursday."

"Singapore, one of Asia's most affluent cities and a regional base for thousands of multinational companies, is a prime target for attacks by militant groups, officials have said. "

read on at link-> yahoo

so do you think it will ever happen one day?

maybe?

hopefully not.

ok im done.

work @ 10AM.

n i officially gotten my mission for 2moro.

10oMuFfins.

whee..

10o will be like nothing compared to 450 last week for MOE fair.

thank god.=)

ok' outs.

good night korang!

sweet loves!=D

i too love

my dad

2010-03-03T23:43:00.004+08:00

(via' wishfulthinking)

finally online.

m quite busy with work these days.
means meeting up is plan in advance.

im having alot of line up next week.
but modular classes will begin next week.
all 4modular.=\
n havin a new production member is no fun..
yeah' cikgu found a substitute to replace me.
unfair! can i not go?

i really love dis job' though sometimes mr lazy bug enters me.=P

ouh wells'
i have to get my mind straight to nursing.

i AM a nurse! NURSING is my life!!
=\ yeah right..

ouh n syg.
aku tau la kau one year older'
tapi respect to your patners to mesti masi ade la ok..
sorry' im de kinda person who judge someone by their first look.
den is up to you to do things to change my mindset.

i may look damn young n can be very noisy n unreal..
yes i do sing n dance n sometimes sing nursery rhymes.
but dat dosent mean im a no brainer you dummie!
youre wearing something dat represent your religion.
please tolong takmau malu name kiter can? please ekh..

you look up when someone say hello' n you ask questions when you dont know..
ouh n yes' you laugh along n have fun!

itu pun kene ajar per.
sheesh..

ok da'
i dont feel any better but atleast is a big sighh..
heh..

ok' i cant wait for whatever is happening tomorrow.
hopefully it'll be good=)

ok my post panjang.
time for you to shudup now nisa..

okaesss.. banyak seh ok. hehehe..

kae' toodles.
selamat malam semua
=D

'your gal dapat tahu'

you mati tau..'

watch out

girls.

2010-02-28T01:52:00.003+08:00

(via; matacolors )

"Memories are what warm you up from the inside.

But they’re also what tear you apart."

Finally sat for de last paper.

though it hurts seeing my frens over n done with

im happy for them.

truly!

n somehow i realise theres nothing to be upset about.

cause everything happen for a reason..

im happy with how life is..

im having de best job ever.

my hobby turned into my work.

n dats de best thing i could ever ask for=)

on a note.

harizAH.

it took me a long time to realise i had feelings for someone..

though i just found out that i had no longer had his love.

its my lose'

all de best to you='))

cause somehow you

were always on

my mind

2010-02-17T12:25:00.002+08:00

(via; wishfulthinking )

-To her Lil bro who is learning the meaning of rejection:

"Rejection is part and parcel of life. Even if it takes a whole in your pocket or eating ice-cream and junk food everyday for a whole week' you've gotta face de fact and move on"

- from his sister

going off to airport at 1PM later.

sending my bro back to brunei..

sigh!

irritants goin home.

ouh wells' he'll be back in may!=)

somehow'

im getting irritated of getting to know people..

did i say dat already?

malas la nk layan'

'you single? you kerje mane skrg? you ade berape adik beradiq?'

n de best question out of all de question

'what's your height?'

ekh' pantat la' tk penting la!

eisshhh..

ouh wells' its all about me now..

yes' my name anisa aje.

no nur no siti no "H" or no extra "N"

ok i think im rembling'

cause im currently piss with people msgin me.

if i dont reply' dat'll be rude.

but its getting irritating' how?

i smiled when i receive

your random

night msg.

2010-02-11T23:00:00.002+08:00

"There you have it young love
Full of promise Full of hope
Ignorant to reality"

-Valentine's Day

The best line from the movie=P

watch the movie with my lovely date!

heh' thanks for de lovely day.

n listening to my every whines and lil grumpiness here n dere.

that's what friends are for!=))

movie was pretty awesome.

was a movie on one day' vdae.

2 of 5!=)

ouh' n i failed my mask fitting.

heh.

so how?

SARS no need work k?

ok go!=)

1030AM 2moro.

nytes!

NO' You dont bring down

one's flaw just because

you get intermidated

by her.

2010-02-11T02:00:00.003+08:00

(via SmudgeStick; butterflygurl17)

"but sometimes were so focus on finding our happy ending
we dont learn how to read the signs
how to tell the one who wants us from the one who dont
the one who'll stay from the ones who'll leave"

-He's Just Not That Into You

thanks to my 2nd bro

who have just return from brunei for a week.

i watch the movie again..

did i say the movie was really2 awesome??

so kene can?

hee.

when im having this kinda moments.

never take me out..

i'll soothe everything by burnin a hole in my wallet.

tralala..

that said'

i love my new tankini' boxers' dress n Tee..

next up shoes n shades..=))

ok' selamat malam smua..

i have a date with my lecturer to test on de mask

which may help in preventing me from

getting any airborne sickness..

which obviusly i will fail.

succkyy..

k. nyts.

cause youre just another

typical guy.

2010-02-03T16:41:00.002+08:00

(via; weheartit)

"Dont make someone a priority if they only make you an option"

i just join this group on facebook!

heh..

dats just out of random..

really..

uhh' went to borders and found de lovely wedding planner book..

bought it for de super-organise, UN-messy fren of mine' diana.

glad she love it.=)

psst..
i want like dat when i get married also ok people? heh.

side track.

my beloved cikgu siti mastura of mine'

spelled my name anEsa.

wah' best ar cikgu..

thx ekh..

-__-''

ok done'

skuls up 2moro.

turnin in for now.

good night all!

her VS the past.

you be the

judge..

2010-02-02T15:50:00.002+08:00

i am finally done with my fruit tart.
now my mom will be happy and one nagging session down.

which makes my cikgu upset
cause i have yet to do her puff patry..

2moro's my off' shall do it den ok cikgu.
heh..

off to pastry#o5.

toodles ya'll.

two is better

then one.

2010-01-30T23:45:00.002+08:00

done with 115 cuppie cakes

n 70 sWeet lil MufFins..

sedap la ok!=D

ok' cuppies was too sweet

but muffins were awesomely nice! wheEe..

next project will be my cakes!

ouh' my heart shape cakes.

ok quick!

who wants to be my next experiment?

ekh' wait'

arent im suppose to be doing pastry?

ok momy' promise.

monday i will do de fruit tarts..

yeak YEAK yeak..

ok' toodles..

2moro will be another tiring day!

ouh' n btw'

i have a new part time job

my dream job!

say lalallaala..

something's bothering my mind

nak cakap' tak nak cakap

ok?

quiz QUIZ quiz

2010-01-20T16:30:00.002+08:00

Graduated High School. (if high school is sec school=P)
Kissed someone.
Smoked cigarettes.
Got so drunk you passed out.
Rode every ride at an amusement park.
Collected something really stupid.
Gone to a rock concert.
Helped someone.
Gone fishing.
Watched four movies in one night.
Gone long periods of time with out sleep.
Lied to someone.
Snorted cocaine.
Failed a class.
Smoked weed.
Dealt drugs.
Taken a college level course.
Been in a car accident.
Been in a tornado.
Done hard drugs (i.e. ecstasy, heroin, crack, meth, acid).
Watched someone die.
Been to a funeral.
Burned yourself.
Ran a marathon.
Your parents got divorced.
Cried yourself to sleep.
Spent over $200 in one day.
Flown on a plane.
Cheated on someone.
Been cheated on.
Written a 10 page letter.
Gone skiing.
Been sailing.
Cut yourself.
Had a best friend.
Lost someone you loved.
Shoplifted something. (hush hush now)
Been to jail.
Had detention.
Skipped school.
Got in trouble for something you didn’t do.
Stolen books from the library.(kinda)
Dropped out of school.
Been in a mental hospital. (attachment and not admitted)
Watched the “Harry Potter” movies.
Had an online diary.
Fired a gun.
Gambled in a casino.
Had a yard sale.
And a lemonade stand.
Actually made money at the lemonade stand.
Been in a school play.
Been fired from a job.
Taken a lie detector test.
Swam with dolphins.
Gone to sea world.
Attempted suicide.
Voted for American/Australian Idol/ Singapore idol
Written poetry.
Read more than 20 books a year.
Gone to Europe.
Loved someone you couldn’t have.
Wondered about your sexuality.
Used a coloring book over age 12. (mental hospt)
Had surgery.
Had stitches.
Taken a taxi.
Seen the Washington Monument.
Had more than 5 IM’s/online conversations going at once.
Overdosed.
Had a drug or alcohol problem.
Been in a fist fight.
Suffered any form of abuse.
Had a hamster.
Petted a wild animal.
Used a credit card.
Gone surfing in California.
Did “spirit day” at school.
Dyed your hair.
Got a tattoo.
Had something pierced.
Got straight A’s. (Well I dont think PSLE counts)
Been on the Honor Roll.
Known someone with HIV or AIDS.
Taken pictures with a webcam.
Started a fire.
Had a party while your parents weren’t home.
Gotten caught having a party while they were gone.

taken by adda's blog.

credits=)

2010-01-19T23:45:00.002+08:00

(via; WishfulThinking )

i use to fold papers and make them into planes,

but it never can fly' n seriously i wonder why..

you noe notti kids in skul'

somehow they manage to fly it.

sighs.

sidetrack' FYP is over.

which means skuls out!

shall wait for 26th Feb for now..

anyone have a job or something for me to do?

please say yes..

heh..

ok' good nyts all..

though i will have trouble sleepin lar..

eishh..

fed up tau'

gasak korang kae'

nisa da malas.

2010-01-18T00:07:00.004+08:00

(via ; wishfulthinking )

"And in the end, it's not about who's skinnier, or who's prettier. It's about who can survive through all the name calling, and dirty looks. It's about who has the strenght not to care."

(via ; poeticheartache)

im yawning. n yawning..

but when i get to bed..

i'll toss and turn

n cant get to bed..

though im super duperly tired..

how? how? how?

help leh.

tssk..

dere's always a gift

fot those who

wait right?

right...

2010-01-12T14:58:00.002+08:00

(via; wishfulthinking)

Dear Friends;

i LovE you.

and had always loved you guys..

thanks for everything=))

ps.

i just wrote this

for fun.

2010-01-12T00:45:00.003+08:00

(via; kari-shma)

"People often say that 'beauty is in the eyes of the beholder,' and I say that the most liberating thing about beauty is realizing that you are the beholder. This empowers us to find beauty in places where others have not dared to look, including inside ourselves"

-Salma Hayek (via QuoteBook )

how i wish life could be as care-free..

where everyday can be a sunday filled with

kite-flying' baking' singing' laughin' n just fooling around.

if only life could be as simple.

where love is just a simple game

when you dont need to find de one'

n was born knowing who is HE.

well' god is fair.

de world is round.

if its my turn to get de biter-sourneSs'

den bring it on..

ouh swells'

content with wad im having now=)

selamat malam semua..

why don't we just end

de alleged rumors

for now.

2010-01-09T00:42:00.002+08:00

via : (raindropsonredroses)

de pic says it alL?

im still wondering what really happen..

well.

i have to just get out of de comfort zone'

of having dem still dere after meetups..

harsh dose of reality'

guys do leave you after de 2nd date..

when everything seems to be well' things changes..

still wondering why..

enough of ranting.

how i wish i could type every single thing here.

but its just not coming out..

hak'dush!!

but nevertheless'

i thank all de guys i met.

ive learnt something from each of them..

n somehow..

my phobias keep on piling up.

n de self-esteEm isSue??

*pFfTtt~

N i'll remember you

cause youre de

first.=)

2009-12-16T16:20:00.003+08:00

(via peaceandlove21)

im BAcK!

*wide smiles*

finally i meet my 2nd bro.

had sooo much fun with irritant.=P

2gether with family minus one plus cuzinn..

when sudenly everyone have grown up

n have their own say.

-____-''

but though we aruge and quarel.

we still LOVE each other.

awwww..

anws go ahead to my FB to view my pics.=)

ouh wels.

muggin with my fyp for nw.

n sucky socio..

havin fabulous group members

dosent help!

--''

cause i tk akan carik org

lain selagi you blum

recover.

essay essay

2009-12-10T17:04:00.002+08:00

via (wishful thinking)

Be thankful for every heartbreak, for they were planned. They come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave. Their purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life. And you do.

`eletheowl

just finish bakin brownie for beloved bro

whom im gonna meet up at kota kinabalu 2moro!

cant wait!=D

currently plug into into my earpiece.

n de soothing instrumental love songs are playin.

can i have de 101love instrumental song CD as a gift for xmaS??

hee.

yeaps' dats wad i hear when im stress up.

its just soothes my mind.=)

n for now im doing my review article.

for my Fyp.

dreads*~

but im sure it'll be done soonish.

den off to pack my bag for de trip.

things to bring include: bras and underwear!=P

ok' lets start concentrating.

toodles ya'll.

i have my new found

single girl swag.

n lovin it.

2009-12-07T23:32:00.002+08:00

via (fuckyeahprettythings)

im going back to my normal bed time

with some exceptional days.

handphone will be on silent when i sleep.

so no one can disrupt my sleep!

hee..

morning calls

are enjoyed

kiddy me

2009-11-30T22:37:00.003+08:00

[[ I didn't talk till de age of four' n couldn't stop till den. Heh. ]]

on suria' deres an advert on nur familia.

where dey talk on lil kids having de tendency to not being able to talk.

or sth like dat la.

kurang pasti i.

so' my dad began to tell me de story.

which i have heard it a couple of time

but didnt mention it here.

so here goes.

so as you can see from de "title"

i didnt talk till de age of four.

not even a single word being said..

so i went to nursery.

n btw' kinderland mp still rocks!=P

n one fine day, i came home talking

n till den i couldn't stop.

i only did stop talking when i was asleep or sick.

n my sleeping habit?

i sleep anywhere.

literally anywhere.

they found me on de bike, toilet, pram. anywhere.

so when dey hear silence,

dey search de whole house for me..

terharu i..

hah' till now.

dey live up to de same expacts..

when im quiet in de house,

dey noe im havin a prob'

n dey will automatically drop ques for me to tell them wad happen.

heh.

smiles to de family~

so, i wonder if dey ever regretted dat day.

n if ever my friends regretted having me able to talk.

huhuhu..

my friends also get de idea..

whenever i just feel like shuting my mouth for one day.

at least one of dem' hu are close or not..

will ask me if im sick.

hee..

loving acquintance i have~

ok. so regrets or no regrets.

im glad i can talk..

lalallalaala..

toodles ya'll..

i love playin

catching.

2009-11-24T00:06:00.001+08:00

"Isn't it ironic? We ignore de ones who adores us, adore de ones who ignore us. Love de ones who hurts us and hurt de ones who love us"

-Facebook.

yer.. ironic sunguh..

-_-''

2009-11-23T22:32:00.002+08:00

him: she's very nice.. i think she's a nurse..

her: *smiles* hmm. yeaps. i am a student nurse.

him: see. no wonder shes nice. youre very sweet.. thank you.

her: *smiles widely*

allalalalaa..

syg kw tau..

can i steal you for one day?

one day je..

hee..

youre de sweetest and most politest of dem all.

and you made my day=D

take good care of adik okies lil' one!=))

Dekni gile kat kau

ke dik?

i love my mom=))

2009-11-21T22:20:00.002+08:00

her mom: "ala, guys come and go lar.. "

4lowed by long talks on relationship.

baik la mama..

thanks for de advice yeR!=D

means his not meant for you

move on ar..

lalalala..

2009-11-20T22:27:00.002+08:00

via; my tickled pink

just to let all my friends know

how im doing..

im OKAE!

perfectly fine.=))

bout de previous negativity posts??

they are just cause of de weather..

mood swings.

hee..

anw, thanks for askin

hee.

"u nak buat i benci

you ekh?"

`mayb?

2009-11-20T21:49:00.002+08:00

"Maybe it's true what they say. There are those people you encounter in life who you never really get over. No matter how many other better people you meet, people who treat you better and love you better, in the back of your mins, there is always that person who you can't quite forget. "

half day of workin with my dady is tiring.

seriously..

im getting hunch-back sooner or later..

heh.

something is bothering me.

but i noe, i have to get a grib on my life

before questioning de other.

de kids are keeping

me preoccupied.

bird-bird bye.

shutup and let me go

2009-11-19T14:27:00.004+08:00

have you ever had a friend who just recovered from a break-up?

or is suffering from acute depression? (=P)

how they keep on talking about their previous relationship

over and over again.

and become very whiny over small lil things.

de sudden outburst of attitude (both visible and invisible)

and every SINGLE day cause youre stuck with her,

you have to hear her rant and become emotionally depressed

over something which is over?

one minute or lets say, one week ago she was perfectly fine..

laughing, cursing and ever ready to move on.

and suddenly today, she's down again

n you know you have to start hearing her whining all over again..

feel like asking her to just shut de hell up right?

or just feel like giving her a slap on her face telling to her to wake up!

like hello!! its over!! fuck him! fuck you! SHUT UP!!!

ever faced in that situation?

now im that girl.

i tried to control myself and keep quiet and not mention anything..

but i couldn't.

all i could do was go on n yek yek yek over things.

n im glad 2 of my friends cum cuzin stayed on.

Adda n Diana; I love you gals.

thank you so much.

=))

im trying to stop..

trust me..

i am..

all i need now,

is my appetite and my sleep back..

before my dady or mom talks to me bout aneroxic and how pretty i am now.

*smiles to de family~

i miss ranting to my darling and sygs.

via meet-ups or phone.

miss de long hours talking to you gals on de phone all night.

ouh. please la meet up soon can?

so.. subconsciously or whatever it is..

you really love him huh?

-speechless.

2009-11-17T23:43:00.001+08:00

No im not jealous

nor im angry..

im just Disgusted..

vomitus bag please.

fuck you

2009-11-16T17:03:00.003+08:00

apple

2009-11-15T20:52:00.004+08:00

"Girls are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the trees. The boys don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they just get the rotten apples that are on the ground that aren't as good, but easy. So the apples at the top think there is something wrong with them, when in reality, they are amazing. They just have to wait for the right boy to come along, the one who's brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree."

-tumbler

had a blast this weekend. its always fun to have your cousin sleepover.

the never ending talks, laughter and not forgeting farts n burbs n some unsightly stufs..

haha. yes. farts. =P

bake cupcakes for adda's mom with fulll of tensions from my mom.

something tells me that my confidence level is goin down.

but glad everything turn out well for a first-timer.=D

nuff said. im glad my appetite is slowly toning down.

oreo ice-blend sedaps ar!!

lalallaalaa..

toodles ya'll.

i have to get over

the sound.

fast.

love yourself

2009-11-15T00:11:00.003+08:00

"De lil' things that make you different are de things that make you beautiful."

-beautiful girls.

you don't need to be a beauty queen.

skinny, busty, tall, mampat, bla bla bla..

you are beautiful de way you are.

don't let anyone change you..

ive learn from my past relationship,

and if ever a guy or whoever can't accept you for who you really are.

they dont deserve de best of you.

im sick and tired of hearing other girls better den me.

i shall be who i wana be.

and i love who i am. (ok, self-proclaim sikit)

that said,

hi.. im anisa..

im a short immature girl and im a very messy kid.

ouh.. n i know i look 15-16 but really i am 19!*giggles

nice to meet you=))

ouh, im not only talking

bout you.

tumbler are loves

2009-11-13T23:40:00.002+08:00

i used to miss you so much

but it never seemed like you missed me.

And I guess because of it I stopped missing you

family

2009-11-09T12:30:00.004+08:00

someone ask me what significant, event which happen that make you love your family so much?

family which includes your nuclear family, and extended family.
extended family which include patrilineal and matrilineal.
in simple form, your maternal and paternal side..

and i answered

always being there for me.

my family had never fail to be dere for me all de time.
supporting me and backing me up whenever i fall..

so we continued and study boout de
functions of de family.

i guess im just very thankful that i have such forgiving family.
i never think that i had ever made my family proud of me.
i never taught of a time where my parents can say "that's my girl"

but yet, they have always been dere to catch me when i fall
and give me 100% support of everythin i have done.
and de most important thing..
accepting me for who i am.
=))

n a promise

everyday i'll try my best to do something
and make my family smile.
if dats de only thing i can do..
i shall do it everyday..

n ps.

i decided to stop waiting

at de place i use

to wait for

you..

de eyes

2009-11-08T21:44:00.002+08:00

an old friend of mine saw this pic

while chating with me online.

"u looking kinda sad, and kinda tired in the display pic"

"senyum pun, mcm berat gitu...mcm using lots of energy to try to smile"

like real?? it can be seen in my pics?

sheesh..

i guess my eyes says it all..

im tired.

i keep wanting to fall asleep in de afternoons.

my giddy spells are coming in.

my bedtime is not regular

n at times i cant fall asleep thinking bout everything.

n sometime Mr. T put me to sleep'

n therefore you see de eyes puffy in de morn.

sheesh~

i have to stop thinking too much'

start letting go off all negative emotions.

get back to my bedtime which is bed by 1o.30' latest 11.

ahh.. i think dat will do de trick.=)

ouh n maybe switch off my phone.

neh' just switch to silent.

cause i know,

de one dat i wana talk to,

wont call.

n thousand of irritating ones will call n disturb.

eish..

ouh wells.

good night everyone..

who say moving on

was easy?

fruit cake

2009-11-02T21:14:00.002+08:00

just finish something therapeutic.

i guess theres something nice bout

measuring, sifting and put everything on high speed.

bam bam bam.

n knowing that you cant be upset on anything

n just have to keep on smiling

even though you doubt de ending will even be nice. =\

my fruit cake in de oven set for an hour @ 150`C

my hands and leg have at least a lil of butter.

typical messy nisa.

wad do you expect?

hee..

so im now patiently and keenly

waiting for it to be ready.

n hopefuly it'll turn out well.

heh.=P

i feel like asking

n' get over

imy

2009-11-02T00:07:00.003+08:00

everyone craves for her

but she only craves for one person.

his not perfect.

moody on rainy days

hot-tampered on somedays

cheeky and pampered de rest of de time.

but why does her heart

keep falling back to de same guy?

why was it so easy for her to

fall in love and got her heart broken

by de same guy?

im abit hangover by Mr. T.

therefore i guess, you see this post.

had alot of reflection goin on.

and all i can keep wonderin is why.

bloody why.

why must dey even invent a word "why"

ahh..

i really dono why de sudden breaking down after sucha long time.

when usualy i use to take dat kinda comment, easily and laugh my ass out.

phuck. i need to stop.

but when?

tell me if youre done

with de game.

2009-10-31T01:43:00.002+08:00

finally went out with a guy=))

cheese fries were de only thing i ate de whole day.

dis just means that i can actualy go on with my one-meal-diet.

dat is if i want and can be bothered to even do it. hee.

de guy's waist as we discovered is smaller den mine.

ahh.. *freaks~

nvrm, woman with big waist deliver their child easily=D

ouh wells, day was amazingly nice although it sucks when goodbye was to be said.

sheesh~

well, my muffins are out from de oven n dey are now in tupperwears.

lovingly sinful *_*

next up is fruit cake.

so how do you get this right when your previous cake was not perfect?

ahh.. hopefully de outcome will be good. =)

im craving for donuts.

im not manja.

i just need company.

and

.....

i just feel like eating it like NOW.

plz

*innocent puppy dog eye look~

i switch off my handphone

to get a lil peace from all

de pleas and drama..

how to say no?

nicely...

2009-10-26T14:20:00.004+08:00

First day of boredom begins.

i so need to get a job soonish.

resume send online have never be replied,

only once.

so im goin down this next few days to walk-in n' apply.

classified are my new found loves. =D

i feel like doing something with cupcakes.

ahh.. we shall see if one day my dreams will come true.

or is just another big dream i have to trash.

ouh. we'll see.. we'll see..

weekends were awesome.

day spent well with maternal side. =))

talk to my aunty bout my whines about

relationship VS parents.

not dat my parents are against it.

dey are open. well kinda.

bottom line is

im just not ready to be a mommy. =P

well besides that.

im happy over something.

but im not gonna keep it high.

cause it'll just end up making me look like --> -__-''

so now im like =S (if dere was even dat kinda emo=P)

it had been 2months since ive last went out with a guy.

so please karma,

be nice to me.

stop playing de game.

plz..

ouh wells,

shall go toys'r us with adda after her skul.

n hopefully get something worth while over de trip.

n now, im thinking OCBC or DBS?

de only thing i love bout OCBC is, its in red..

final touches of my red collection.

not dat im realy goo goo ga ga' ing over it la.

hee.

lame reason nisa.

takin' care lovelies=))

just so you know,

was waitin' for

your call.

2009-10-19T17:30:00.002+08:00

ive canceled something from my wishlist=))

alhamdulillah..

n now my left leg and hands are free..

suker=))

skuls in.

an hour a day sucks to de max.

really..

starting to love to bake.

marble cake minus de hangus(abit) equals to sedap.

looking forward for my wednesdays @ siti's delight.

viewing accidents via online are terrible thing to do.

someone met up with an accident

but alhamdulillah youre home safe.

no wories, you still look good without de few skins.=P

shall wait for one day to come.

ok. done.

4am.
hope what my friend
say is true.

hoping.

glass

2009-10-12T22:07:00.004+08:00

Relationships are like glass.

Sometimes it's better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together..

ok. enough.

take care people.

wake me up when

it's over.

hari rayer

2009-09-25T18:27:00.003+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYER

kawan kawan!

i'll take this opportunity to say im sorry to everyone out dere.

yes, i may have been a lil irritating bitch.

crapping. irritating. noisy lil bitch.

heh.

so if ever i have done anything wrong to you.

nk menyusun jari i nie, utk minta maaf kat you all you all..

=))

hari rayer with family minus 1

have been pretty awesome.

my room is all spanking clean right now.

im so proud of dat you know!

huhuhu..

im getting real bored at home.

deres not much things to be done.

im just awaiting for replies from all de companies i send my resume to.

lembabs ar krg. =\

so besides dat,

im just looking wondering thinking about everything in life.

reflecting bout everything.

heh.

ok no more emo for me.

im doin perfectly fine.

cant you see de smile?

*winks~

p.s.

your boyfriend's flirting

with me.

karma karma karma

2009-09-17T23:34:00.003+08:00

"see la. last time people really want you, you break their heart. make them cry. see now your turn to cry"

this was said to me after telling syuk about my fail relationship

(of course in malay and harsher ar.=\)

ahh..

life is playing de sweetest game called karma.

i like.. -_-''

soyes.

i had break guys heart.

and now its my turn.

i got my heart broke by de guy i loveD.

guys are making me cluless these days.

one day, i smile.

de next day im just okae...

suke la..

ouh wells. living by de day.

single's life for me..=))

n yes boy,

im not ready to be someones girl now.

so, before you say i hurt your feelings,

get it right ok!

mane semua pergi ekh?

sedih aku.

dats about it.

2009-09-16T11:59:00.002+08:00

couldn't find de perfect poem to translate how i feel.
so here is de one.
specialy from me.

what can i do to make things right?
cause im just lying here awake all night
thinking when youre coming back to hold me tight
and to tell me that everything will be alright.=)

you used to tell me im not like the other girls
im special in all ways.
now you tell me im a mess
n all im left with is why's

will do whatever it takes
for you to be happy
even if it hurts
im willing to take de plunge

now im taking a step back
while i see you smile
thinkin how de smile
use to be mine

i guess you'll be okay
with de hands of another.
take her on de cable car ride
i hope she'll hold on you tight

'cause she'll be de reason i cry
every single night
thinkin bout what we use to had
that makes me go on cloud nine.

all im left is memories
off you and me
both bitter and sweet
you use to be my honey bee

all i wish for now
n ever hope for
is for you to come home
n be my one and only bum bum.

ouh. n i did something so tk tau malu.

so dat he'll be able to read this.

heh.

ouh well..

after this.

im goin to stand up and smile.

thanks for de show.=))

brighten me

up people.

puase start!

2009-08-21T21:41:00.005+08:00

to all muslim friends out there:

selamat berpuase people!

its time for us to be more patient.

no more vulgarities and gossiping.

for a girl, do you think you can?

hehe..

im sure we can do this!

all de best okie!

*senyum senyum selalu*

so im on my exams period right now.

3adult nuring + 1psych paper more.

*sighs*

im not really into stress mode,

not until de eve of de exams.

heh.

ouh.. after my socio paper yesterday,

rewarded myself with chocolate waffles.

sedaps!=))

evening, vomited it out.

shucks!

told my mom.

mom: you ar, exam period only. stress stress den sick! just relax la, rest!!

me: -___-'' yer.. resting..

lil bro: y ekh kakak sick sick? kakak study too much ekh?

me: *feeling2 proud*

mom: she study alot? nonsense!

-__________-''

n dats y i love my family?

heh.

alhamdulillah im ok today!=))

ouh wells.

lesson learnt;

no immediate squating to do your shoelace after jogging.

ouh wells.

im directing my mind to HS3113 now.

-adult nursing 5-

care of the acutely ill & musculo-skeletal disorder.

n im still @ triaging.

ahh...suke la..

so since everyone is on exam periods.

well, mostly..

a big shout out to you guys!

all de best!

good luck!!

ouh p.s.

dont mind my background.

will change it after exam period.

promise!

hee.

k..

toodles..

jagan lupe bangun untuk sahur yer krg!

as long as youre happy,

i'll be ok being just

another

apple.

2009-08-13T00:38:00.002+08:00

kentals to de kentals.

nk bitch, bitch boleh..

tkmo pijak kepale sudah..

jangan pai minah aku terkelua.

selamat korang..

part nie tkde ms nisa nice.

dont make me turn de

table around

phucker

darlink dangdut.

2009-08-09T00:09:00.004+08:00

*a featured friend*

someone who you feature on your page

is someone meaningful to you..

someone worthful of..

senang kate, you like dat person, you feature la. ok?

k. settle.

i was a lil busy body.

so i happen to go on this website n check out someones profile.

another shocker..

my hands start to shake.

my kness starts to tremble.

featured friend was her.

i knows it take alot for you to feature someone.

but why her?

someone you told me you use to hate..

do you even know dat she was featured somewhere else..

featured on anti minah and kenings 2.0 on FB?

yes.. anti-minah..

minah la ok?

but as of 090809 (date lawa pe? hee)

it was being remove.

so ouh wells..

im not goin to be rude and bitch about her..

cause im not a bitch..

i shall just accept de fact dat hey, you like dat girl..

n im sure she have more in her such as her heart.

den just her body.

n yes u, die tk lawa ok..

keep on to your quest on getting another pretty ex can?

heh..

but trully, im upset..

bkn nye ape la..

but why after me,

you go to her.

y her seh?

wad does she have dat i dont?

gosh..

tkper la kns..

dere a things dat im gonna keep within me.

till den,

not in de mood tu kn; just smile ok..

everything will be alright..

my family and friends

are here for me

n dats all dat matters.

manis

2009-08-04T20:48:00.006+08:00

1year of being single
im sick and tired of getting to know guys.
im tired of having to impress a guy.
im just plain lazy.

so on June 15 it all started.
a msg was sent by me to him.
and email were exchange,
and dere you go..
a new friendship found.
=))

he was in school and im at home.
chatted and chatted.
and a funny guy i met.
2days pass and he pass him his number.
i acknowledge it by sayin good night pakcik.

we began to sms each other de whole day.
i lebih happy layan eu dari layan my facee..
ok. i like.*_*

began to talk on de phone till wee hours.
nisa's bed time @ 10.30PM was long 4gotten about.
laugh. chat. talk. talk. laugh. laugh.
=P

someone got bored in school.
so i ask him to think about de weekends..
and he ask if he could spend his weekend with me.
so dgn tk tau malu nye nisa, i say bleh2! hee. =)

so we did.
met him up on June 20.
for de first time i was so scared.
i wanted him to be impress by me.
kept on thinking on what to wear.
got damn nervous

called ling and ask on every single thing.
just to impress you, my boy..
so finally tone down and wait for you.
fell asleep while waiting for you; traffic jam ar eu.. lgpn cck jauhs seh.
-_-'
so finally met you under my void deck.
you were on de phone.
ok nisa nervous up2.
so you smiled and i smiled back.
so we left tamp and continued our journey to suntec city.
cut de story short.
you send me home.
i thank you for de lovely day out.
n quoted telling you dat
i never felt as comfortable with a guy like how i was to you..
n really i do..

so we began talking
meeting up at de slightest moment we could.
you brought me to places i never been to..
we
laugh
laugh
laugh..

got to no more of you:
you dont smoke, drink, club, n much2 more which im all smiles about..
ouh n dis one paling best..
you dont eat spicy and you dont eat seafood!
baik per??
whee..
nisa suke!=))

so we were close.
and i realise dat i found de one dat i wan to spend my life with.
i know, its damn fast but all i wanted was you..
you you and you!!

after a whole 1year of single life..
i taught i met de guy for me.

began to tell you how i feel and you told me de exact same things.
i melted deep inside
and wonder if you are really de one..
you reassured me time and time again, telling me dat you love me
n one day we wll be 2gether..

so on this day, a month ago..
July 4th
we were at mount faber park; de usual place we sat.
we knew dat dat day, was de day we had to be 2gether..
you got down on your knees..

*nisa cair*
and ask me to became you girlfriend.
you promised you'll never hurt me,
take care of me.
n de most importantly
love me...
so i accepted and sealed it with a kiss. =P
i promised you back.
almost on de verge of tearing,
but of course, nisa maintain!=))

due to de date factor.
i wanted de official date to be July 5.
050709.
"we'll beat de odds" we said.

so dere you go..
a new relationship, hoping to grow..
my frens, relative and even family
were happy for me.
you guys look sweet 2gether. =))

i got so comfortable with you..
cared for you..
loved you..
protect you..
little did i know,
you were a grown boy..
you know how to look after youself.
stupid me..
what was i thinking?
=\

you got irritated of me.
being so clingy and just being so dumb.
you got irritated of every single thing i did.
even my call and sms was a painful sight for you..

i kept on asking you why..
and finally you told..
so i decided, i want to change..
klu dgn lelaki lain kn, nisa say gi mampos. ngn u, i beg u..
i beg you for another chance to prove myself wrong.
by that time your status had changed to single.
i cried my ass out for you..
n i know theres no point crying.
all i had to do was to bloody hell change..

so i taught i did.
i became more patient with you.
trust you as much as i could..
ignore criticism from you..
all de $%&&$%#lalallalaalalaalallaa@$%$$$%&*^%#(#!!!, i ignored..
i knew i deserve all this from you who had tolerted with me all this while..
i stayed up de whole night thinking about you..

1 week pass
n when finally i open my bloody mouth and ask you if you love me..
dere you go..
ive got de answer i wasnt expecting for..
can we just be friends for now..
my heart just stop beating and eventually tears start rolling.
heartbroken. crashed..
n everything you could imagine..
why why why..
all i could ever ask was why...
but of course, i did not, n just shut my mouth n fall to my bed thinkin and thinking..
i wanted to talk to you, but you told me you were tired..
n i said ok..
last word from you; nyt nyt (you know i love it when you say it like dat.=P)

why did you have to go so soon??
now all i could do, is wish for you to be happy..
happy with your friends and you love ones..
of course im sad..
i truly am..
all i could think about is you..
i miss you..
i miss hugging you close..
i miss it when you hug me after every single fight we had..

i miss looking at you fall asleep while i hear your heartbeat n de waves of de sea.
i miss when your hands are holding to mine when we are on de bike.
it makes me go googoogaagaa over you.
heh.
i just miss your cuteness and your manjeness..
youre still a cute lil boy to me. =P

but dont bother bout me,
i'll be alright..
im good at faking a smile.
no worries..

for now, im not sure how to move on..
im keeping still here..
i really dono how to get back up..
so..
i'm letting you free
n if we are really meant to be
you'll come back to me..
right??
hopefully..
wishin wishin wishin..

so dere you go..
the story of *MaNis*

and for you,
i really have nothing against you..
you told me we could be friends..
n im happy dat you want it to be dat way.
so if deres anything in life dat bothers you,
gimme a call ok..
or sms ke.
or msn with me ke..
anything. i'll just be right here..

n even if you have nothing.

friends say hi to each other n hang out kn..

so we are friends right?

i hope we are

so status change..
i use to be single n loving it.
den i became happily attach n loving it..
now im singleFULLSTOP!
im not loving anything about being single.
phuck.. it hurts alot..

im really drained by de tears which is coming out from my eyes..
stop please?

timecheck: 10.31PM and i still have not began my essay which is due 2moro..
baik nisa..

im getting insomnia..

i cant fall asleep..

n when i do, its just for 2hours, n i'll be awake again for de nest 1-2hours staring at de walls..

so de next time you see me, taking a nap in de afternoon.

tkmo disturb k..

heh..

so toodles ya'll..

this chest pain

is not helping

at all.

kill me

2009-07-28T09:35:00.002+08:00

it really hurts.

yes it does.

cyber can really be damn hurting.

words are different from what one says face to face.

my heads killing me.

im drained out by all de emotions thrown to me.

i feel like breakin down.

but ive to keep on being strong.

but if anything were to happen,

i have no one to blame but myself.

for once i was not even a fren to de person i truly love.

im tryin my best. nope. i had enough of trying..

i want to change.

n if its true wad dey say about action speaks louder den word

im goin to prove to you

what nisa say is true.

change for de better n hopefully to get de one i want back.

i had enough of crying and sulking.

you know wad nisa?

you deserve this.

like one say

"if youre my bf right, i'll already slap your face you know"

so y didnt he?

i think it'l complete my suffering.

-_-'

so thank god for me, he dont touch a girl.

so bottom line is,

im truly sorry.

im changing n i hope youre still gonna be dere for me.

i still love you you know.

n wherever you are right now,

i hope everythings goin well for you.

please dont forget your meal.

till den, i miss you very much bacin!

menangis hati ku

menangis.

kill me

skills test1

2009-07-22T00:52:00.002+08:00

ever felt so tired n stress over things

till you feel like puking for god noes y?

gosh.

im feeling dat way now.

n its a sucky feeling i swear!

i wana puke!

BLUUUUEEEKKK...

its 1am n i stil have no update

on dat someone.

mane org tk risau?

ouh wells.

theres always a limit 2 every patience given.

anws..

pract skil 1 was done in 5min.

n i pass..

n so did everyone in de class.

alhamdulillah.=))

now im cramping my brain up for

skills test 2 n theory test.

both dis friday.

suke suke suke.

wells. exams timetable are up,

n i have 6written exams to study on.

my stress mechanism are up

but i guess my brain still dosent wana compensate

by studying now.

ouh wells.

chill pill nisa..

ok ppl.

im off now.

geting some shut eyes.

-___-ZzzZ

n i hope i dont fall sick.

plz la body..

now cannot la..

n i hope we can

beat de odds

together.

lychee

2009-07-17T22:46:00.002+08:00

Bacin!

LooK!

LyCheEEeeEe...

whee..

ok enough..

god noes y i put this lil innocent fruit on.

but i guess bf noe's=))

had a lil tiff with him just now.

so i hope dis would bring at least a smile 2 him..

c'mon.. i know you nak senyumm..

senyum je la.. alalala..

hehehe..

kk. enough nisa..

bf's working 2night till 11PM.

sunguh lmbt kn?

i know.

but ouh wels..

nisa needs to learn how to eat de chill pill..

relak la gal..

y so serious.

*rolls eyes*

heh..

back 2 skul.

mgmt n adult nursing presentation are all done.

alhamdulillah.

=))

my nursing skills practical 1 will be done next week, tuesday.

so in a glance of next week..

2 skills practical.

one theory test

one presentation.

i like i likes..-_-'

so im going to be a good girl 2moro (saturday) n stay @ home 2 study..

kuai right?

i know.-_-'

ouh wells.

im stil waiting patiently for bf 2 reach home.

till den,

i'll find something to do.

ouh ouh..

n you know wad..

dis is my 100th post!!

everyone shout

HOORRAAHHH!!!

heh.

seriously, enough nisa..

lots of love 2 everyone..

ouh wait!!

i miss my gf's..

ystd i saw old-time videos..

alahai..

nk jumpe you all la..

can not??

darling ling ar??

zyma sayang ar??

mane krg menhilang nie ekh??

-_-'

i get an update on alyn redi..

de rest smua..

senyap..

apada..

n nabx. u also huh..

lost..

call me soon loveS!

ok.. im for real now.

toodles ya'll!!

lots of love!

=))

im gonna cherish

de chance

n change

=))

picnic

2009-07-15T21:03:00.002+08:00

picnic filled with balloons.

with beloved family and friends..

can i have this for my birthday?

1packet of super ring cost only $1.

tk mahal right??

hehe..

pretty preety plz...

as you all notice. im damn bored.

just cant get myself to tune up to studying.

mcm ape tah kn? i know.

heh..

dala. im gona try now.

bye ppl..

n i took de 3rd bus home

thinking you will

change your

mind.

bacin050709

2009-07-14T23:34:00.004+08:00

he entered my life=))

Abdul Rahman Bin Mahfod,

youre mine.

ahaha..

n n deres no turnin back!

*evil laughters*

ok enough nisa..

im happy with him. really.

eventhough his sometimes too protective n sensitive.

inside my heart.

im just smiling!=))

sumpa nisa tk tau asl. heh.

i just feel so comfortable being around him.

i can sing my nursery ryhmes n i sing songs to him.

i just dont dare to dance with him..

itu tk leh ekh you..=P

ouh.. he have seen me eat.

if you know what i mean..

*winks*

lalallaa....

enough on him. you'll get to know him sooner or later.

im sure.=)

skuls draining me up.

till de point dat i feel someone have actually drain my blood out.

good imagination? i know. heh.

mgmt presentation up 2moro.

adult nursing 5 presentation up de next day.

followed by nursing skills practical 1 this friday.

fun right?

nisa's overjoyed..

really..

-_-'

ok la ppl.

im off to do final read through on my slides,

n wait patiently for bacin to finish getting his bath.

suke nisa 2ngu..=)

dala. good night ya'll..

i just love to lie down n hear de

sounds of your hearbeat

with de waves

of de beach.

maman=))

2009-06-29T22:15:00.004+08:00

nysa's back!

yes. finaly.

out of boredom cause no ones talking to me.

heh.=P

life had been awesome?

hee..

a new fren have been found

n i guess im falling.

yes ppl, finally im falling.

n dis is for real.

really..

*rolls eyes*

new fren;

CCK. S4. sweet. loving. irritating. cute. temperable. funny. super thin=\.

mix of bad n good

=))

yeaps. de last factor is by most de worst for me.

bkn nye ape la,

tapi kiter nie ade ummphh sikit.

diri seblah2, feewit..

suke i.=\

dats about it for new fren.

n yes,

im also hoping dat his not like de other one.

*finger cross*

ok life.

H1N1.

cause of him,

were all at home supposingly to do e-learning.

hee..

besides dat, 3weeks equals to not bad ape. hee..

3weeks of holiday.

from sentosa with cuzins n aunty n uncle.

to new hair.=\

to paintball with siblings.

to dinner with sygs..

to project works.

to snow city

to sentosa

to movie dates.

to beach

n everything else la kns..

ouh. n n exploration of west side..weetss..

so my 3weeks fun la 2.. hee..

okla ppl.

im still damn bored.

but sumpa i dono what to do n write here.

eish cpt la. wdland to CCK jauh per..

almks..

cekiks my darah lar nie.

dada.

keep smiling ppl!=)

bacin la

eu nie.

mending a broken heart

2009-05-10T22:32:00.004+08:00

Mending a broken heart

You are worth loving.

You have a lot to offer the right person but right now your not ready.

You still have so much to figure out and right now its about reconnecting with who you really are.

Its not fair to you or the other person to try and invest your time in something that will not work out.

This doesn't mean that you shouldn't have hope in the near future...

it just means you still have growing up to do.

You are unique, you have the ability to love tremendously but in order to share that with anyone you must first heal, spend time on your own, and learn to enjoy single life.

Take this time to breathe and regroup...

I promise you...

finding yourself isn't a cliche, its real- and once you have, you will create a love that will never be broken.

~facebook

so de true

*winks*

netball

2009-05-09T18:34:00.002+08:00

i 4got to post bout this last night.

we, group 14 have a lil captain ball match.

was so damn fun la kn..

i still love ribbon team!

n we still rock! wuuts!!

hee.. for once you see everyone bring so sporty..

n you can see everyone's true colour.

we have a gd defender, striker n goalkeeper!

*weets*

really happy dat finaly our group is like ONE!

thanks people for making it happen!=))

im really looking 4ward 4 next week friday!

n guess wad?

ive book it already!

hee..

ouh wells.. next week will be running around.

all gearing up for napfa test huh?

huhuhu..

okiess.. sweet love to everyone!

=))

its irritating when dey

cancel de plan..

cancer

2009-05-08T21:55:00.003+08:00

If you think you are beaten, you are;

If you think you dare not, you don't!

If you'd like to win, but you think you can't,

It's almost certain you won't.

If you think you'll lose, you're lost;

For out in the world we find

Success begins with a fellow's will;

It's all in the state of mind!

If you think you're outclassed, you are;

You've got to think high to rise.

You've got to be sure of yourself

Before you'll ever win the prize.

Life's battles don't always go

To the stronger or faster man;

But sooner or later the man who wins

Is the person who thinks he can!

~unknown author

studying cancer in school is not as easy as A, B, C 1,2,3

de emotions brought to us by de lecturer and de videos

of real cancer patient is so real..

i really feel sad and emo whenever i hear stories about them.

n tears just can roll down my cheek when i try to put their shoes in mine

but then again, inspired when i hear about cancer survivors,

who through it all battled through cancer and fought back.

is not easy n deres still no reason why cancer come about?

de only precaution we can take is to have

early screenings.

n mind you, some people go too late.

anyone can get cancer.

from a child, to a young adult to a mature adult.

whoever that virus wants, he can just come.

dont you think its so scary?

to cancer patients outdere

or anyone whos family member is fighting cancer,

my heart goes to you..

i really admire your strong will n will always hope n wish for

de best for you n you love ones.

keep on having that strong will n power..

i admire you guys so much.

kudos.=))

ouh n yes people,

do listen to de song

just stand up

by various artist.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S47HSgvhneA

what if one day

im the one?

week3

2009-05-06T22:43:00.003+08:00

credits to lim xin lin eileen=))

dont i just look super sweet?

haha..

nisa feeling feeling.=)

school had been amazingly amazing..

what am i saying?

i swear i dono..

hah..

im still keepin up to my rules n regulations.

doing my tutorials keenly..

hee.

n im stil homely.

deres nothing bout life dat needs to be updated.

its just skul. home. friends..

which are all pretty de same.

maybe dis final year is a test of

persevearance and patient

well, i super duper like anndy's clas. psych tutorial.

it really open me up n yeah.=))

im not alone.

ouh and this is one of de many doodles during psycho socio class..=P

i wana go snow city can?

how do you tell when

someone is

true?

skolss..

2009-05-01T15:48:00.003+08:00

niSa is a homely person these days.

n yes, im not goin out for the weekends.=))

so by de shoutout says, you should roughly know how life had been.

school. home. school. home.

its a pleasure.=))

2nd bro is back home from his 2weeks of NS.

his body is so hitam now n his stomach is flat with packs.

he have a body

n yes his BOTAK!

did a lil catch-up with hafiy last night.

thank god his ok.

n yes, his also complaining about his rahter dark skin..

ahaha!

padan la muka satu2..

weets..

well, back to life.

school had been a roller-coaster.

upside down, inside out.

with 3adult nursing 2 handle this sem.

n 2psycho related topics to touch.

MISERY!

shucks!

presentations here n dere.

tutorials here n dere.

feewits..

got some upseting news.

but no wories..

im pulling through.

wad had been done. is done.

no turning back.

is just THE CLIMB.

=))

i miss my darling sygs..

though i just met darling ling the other day 4 a lil catch up.

n though i ocassionaly bump into zyma syg in skul.

i still miss them.

deres loads to catch up on.

so gals,

please make yourself free for a least 2hours next week can??

after skul hours of course.

cause i cant skip klas dis sem..

which brings me to my so call resolutions for another fruitful year in school.

no more skiping class.

no more sleeping in class (which include lectures)

pay attention in class n dont doodle around

doodle only NOTES!

no more talking on the phone during lecture time

do all ICA's on time

do all tutorials on time

answer Nursing Lab questions asap rather then wait till exams and copy

go online to view CBT for NLab

do CMS

go for e-LECTS

yeaps.. thats about it i suppose..

ok. im done for this post.

for those bugging for a post.

there you go.. happy prevails huh???

keep smiling people!=))

sometimes in life,

you just feel like hugging someone.

well, for now, suprisingly i feel like hugging you!

imy..

ns

2009-04-16T21:38:00.004+08:00

im back home from indonesia!

whee..

n yes im in one piece, thanks for asking. hee..

i had a blast!

from de karaoke to de room. everything was pleaseantly awesome! whee..

my official good bye to hafiy!

his off to NS to become a real soldier! ahaha..

ok stop.

im just woried over his heart conditions.

but i hope he'll be alright!=))

another official goodbye to anwar!

my 2nd bro.

like finally his surrendering to spore n commit up for NS.

i hope he'll be patient now.

all de best.

=))

i hate being

nagged.

2009-04-04T12:09:00.002+08:00

3weeks of attatchment is finally over.

=))

de attatchment was filled with mix feelings.

at times i feel like

breaking down..

screaming at people..

be alone..

jump around..

sing out loud..

dance like an idiot..

laugh laugh laugh..

gosh..=\

well its over and done with.

no more blue tag.

and on to red..

RED!

means, de last year of student nursing for me.

giler per?

n you know what.

im scared im not ready.

but slowly n surely.

all de best yer nisa.

ppl.

pray for me ya.=))

ok. im done with ranting.

ranting over things which is not important. ahaha..

will be away for one whole week.

im off to jakarta, indonesia.

with adda syg n family. my uncle n de most important person.

my idiotic brother! 2nd to be exact.

tssk..

okok..

bon voyage people!

ouhya..

happy birthday adnan. its his 11th.

bought him a krumpler bag.

n to think dat it is on my wish list.

tssk..

ok. keep smiling u idiot!

muackz!

i miss being

lovED..

2009-03-28T16:19:00.012+08:00

hi dere PpL!

hee. i had long be away n im back!

2weeks of attatchment @ SGH ward45 is finally over.

one more week to go.

its a medical ward. im just totally stress up over work.

isn't really wad you call FUN. but im hangin on n pulling thru.

been doin nursing care 4 patients. n trying to link every health related things together.

so damn complicated can?

but CI is nice. im ok with de way she teach me.

not dat i really love her.

getting some not-important comments from my friends. but ouh wells.

im done with work. hate talkin about it.

but PJ & kat are helpin me pull thru it although we're not in de same cubicle.

ouhouh. i just love to feeling2 SIA everyday. hee..

will show it to you ppl some day.=))

but im lovin de after math of work.

AM SHIFT

*160309 went sentosa with my cuzie wuzies. aunts n all. so fun! *who did it? you did it* i love entertaining de lil ones.

*170309 PJ n i met up with Theo. dey bought me dis lil cute bear. which is btw, ASTHMA-friendly. how cool? now i can sleep with it! hee. =))

*180309went to ECP for cycling with maternal side of de family. was fun having de smal lil girls talk with aunty yan. adda didn't really joined our talk cause she was just to damn fast. me and aunty yan was too slow to catch up. hee.

aunty yan: ekh dorang takde kaki pe? cepat seh. giler punye org. haha..

was fun having an adult to hear to my whines n pain. hee.

*260309 went to meet adda syg for a small girls talk. like finally la i noe what is she up to n y de sudden quietness on de last meet up. hee. tried something new; waxing. wasn't really dat painful as i thought it will be. hee. now no hair no hair! hee. im happy!=))

*270309 Met up with darling ling n zyma syg. n today was ling's day. let me type it again. it was Tai Meiling's day! she didn't even paid for anything. ouh you lukcy girl. had burger king which was on zyma. terima kasih yer.=)) n karaoke was on me. whee. are they lucky or what? hee. was nice to meet up with dem after 2weeks of dreadful attatchment. dey really made my day.=)) which after ling's departure to work. we went to meet up with wawan n syuk. hee. suker si bdk 1991 nie. ok dats a new name! hee. i just hope history wont repeat itself.=))

PM shift:

i can only talk about one day which was on de 230309. wen wawan giler fetch me from work. si giler nie. tkde kerje betul. n he fetch me all de way from block 4. never a guy fetch me this far. you see de goodness of being friends n single? hee. suker. maseh yer! =))

ok done. 1more week of attatchment to go. borin. but this is more fun. 1more week to jakarta! whee.. i like! will be goin with anwar, adda n her dad. yeah! i like i like i like! hee. cant wait girl! my heart starts jumpin whenever i think about jakarta n de shopin i will be doin! whee..

well 2day im havin my occasion mood swings. in de mornin im ok, but after a nap, im got irritated of everything.

when i wake up from nap time, i can really get wierd.

either i just wake up n gobble down on junk food,

or i just crave for a hot drink, n just drink it all up

or i just get very cranky.

n only one person is use to this. n im happy dat im starting to talk 2 him in a very nice manner! irritating idiot =))

when people are irritated

dey only think about

themselves.

kn??

ec cys gathering

2009-03-13T11:30:00.006+08:00

110309- A day Spent with EC cystaz..

weets. it had been sucha long time ago since dey full-5 last met.

thank you girls for sacrificing your day for lunch.

though it was a short meet up. it really made my day.

next meet up; ECP?

yeeeaaahhh!! ok done.

lets just let de pics do de talking.=))

this is how we look like during de past. hee.

tk penting. i noe.=P

Lunch @ Far East.

thanks to darling ling, it was her treat.

i just love mine!=))

on our way to borders, zyma just couldn't stand ling's tweety bird. =p

here we go. camwhore..

dis digestive biscuit really works.. yakult also can lose you know. hee.

n did i mention, i love dem! super duper love!

big hugs and flying kisez!

=))

i'm not sure if being sad

is the way to react

to your msg.

holis part 2?

2009-03-09T11:41:00.007+08:00

My HoLis arE starTinG to bE hapPenin! i love it!=))

ThuRsday- 050309

went out with darling ling to do up her pSp. ouh gosh. i hate de shop. lesson learnt; dont buy anything from sim lim. hee. ouh wells. Followed by a quick dinner @ lau pa sat with naddy n hafiy. like ouh my. i have long to meet her la. n finally after 2years apart?? we finally met. AWwWw.. we chilled n get back to our lifes @ boat quay. nice place i must say. =)) well. got tired. so off to home.

splendid day!

really love to meet up with de loves of my life.

whee...

FriDay-060309

first up went to jurong industrial hub with PJ dear 2 get our name tag done. irritating idiots just love to horn us for no apparent reason!=\ den met up with eileen dear, scotts n theadore! another guy whom i have lost touch with. had lunch @ singapore flyer; popeyes! uuhhh.. i love it!=)) so yummylicious! hee. so eileen n scotts left us for clarque quey. n de rest were off to orchard. scout around for god noes wad. den we went to heeren. heres de thing, everyone wants de cd from lady gaga, pink, christina n bla bla bla. but.. can i get de 100 instrumental hits?? ouh.. plz.. i really love it. it consist of 4cds. i really wan it. it'll totaly help me with studies n so on. so ouh plz. someone get me dat plz.. preety plz.

*innocent eyes*

we chilled outside paragon while looking at guys n gals. looking out for a nice bods. hee. wanted to go back by 10. but.. ouh well. hee..

Saturday-070309

woke up damn early to go for a crappy lesson. i swear it was a total waste of money. n to make me feel worse. i drag my cuzin; adda syg into goin with me. like ouh my. im so sorry. after a pathetic 3-4hours, went to adda place. watch "my bestfriend's girlfriend" while waiting for adda's mom to come home. was damn hilarious i swear! after adda's mom return home, we went out to causeway point to watch this show. ouh my. a damn nice movie! at times, i really feel like shutting my mouth cuz maybe i ever done somethings. ehehe.. well, suppered at rubinah's n off to home. again, home @ 10pluz pluz..

=))

Sunday-08o309

went kite-flying n bubBles fun @ woodlands with cliques minus 2 + yudi n scotts. speedy recovery to diana's fiance.=)) de trip was super duper fun! i really like it! A must go again. n de next time, im gonna bring an insect repellent, rubberband, perfume, towel n our very own kite with super long string! yeah! =)) was damn fun. due to de loads of sun being soked up, got hypo n turned really nuts! whee. stayed dere till de sun n moon change shift.=P

4lowed by a super slow dinner by me, with hariz. i guess im de only one who eats slow this days. -_-' well, was nice having him as a company back to wdlands. n his hands are now all red. his an ass sometimes but he keep me smiling n not zZzZ'ing.=)) n again back home @ 11. tssk tssk tssk..

so for now, im goin to be a good girl and stay at home!

really.

besides de fact dat i have no more money,

im goin to tone down myself n rest myself b4 de start of 3weeks attatchment @ ward 45!

penuh kenagan ward itu you.

hee.. well, more pics will be uploaded as soon as i get them.

so.. toodles ya'll!

keep it this way kae?

maintain senyum

je!=))

wonder girls

2009-03-04T21:00:00.005+08:00

ok. i just have to post on this.

hee..

im now addicted to this particular korean or japanese song also i dono.

hee. very nice.

first you see this video..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=miguKywI8XA

den you view this video..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3cspKsfe3VY&feature=related

dont mind de very long n lenghty video. i just love de song. so catchy.. can you see de wonders of make up?? hee..

i want nobody nobody but YOU!

whee... lalala..

ok. stop b4 i get on anyones nerve.

ok da. hee..

toodles.

cause you just

dont see

it..

2009-03-04T10:45:00.006+08:00

so as promised..

pics up from darling ling n sam dearest.=))

FeAt: LyN, SaM, HaFiy, NiSa

i miss someone seriously. .

tak bedek.

first week of holis

2009-02-28T13:22:00.004+08:00

was out almost everyday.
heading to de centre almost everyday for de first part of de week.
lepak here n dere.
couldn't shop cause as everyone noes, im broke. tssk.

met up with darling ling, sam-sam n idiotic hafiy on wednesday.
whaha..
wil upload pics soon when i get it from ling n sam. =))

thursday was spent playin monopoly with zyma syg.

shes a liar!

haha..

okok. i come in peace.

met up with irritating fai on fri morning.

he is such an irritant!

blueks.

sadly im stuck at home on a sat afternoon.

canceled all plan to go out cause my mom said were goin out.

n end up, shes sleepin.

ouh.. im so happy!-_-'

dan inilah luahan

hatiku

2009-02-22T15:28:00.006+08:00

Singhealth Family Day @ marina Barrage.=))

finally a change of community. a change of venue. n finally not macdonalds.

the weather was great. everything was nice.

so yeaps. not bad at all.

i became a kid while lookin after my lil bro. soyeah.

everyone doubt i was 18.=(

my momy n lil bro sastisfy my craving by accompanyin me to the airport to eat popeye. hee. but

i only ate de mash potato since i had already eaten my healthy-ouh-so-nice delifrance tuna

sandwhich. hee..

im home sweet home on a sunday. my bros are all out. my lil bro is stuck at home muggin for

exams. n im here. doin nothing at all. ouh gosh. it sucks being broke. i have to sadly turn down

everyone's intention of meeting me 2day just because im broke. freaks. sedih betul babe.=((

nyes, im de bitch for everything.

youre de good one!

pfft!