“ There are things in life that never last. But the truth is, you never lost them until you let them go. Life is about choice: hanging on, holding back, letting go. Some things do last if you just let them, and if they let you. ”

#inthemidstofthinking

hello Blog!

i have long to see you' n you have long to see me.

so hello! hehe..

so just a lil update on life.

Alhamdulillah my life in Nyp as a nursing student

is finally over.

yes' i had finally graduate!!

*Screams and jump out loud*

Which equals to i survive 3months of pure shift work in ward 64.

which includes Night duty.

de best ward and will always be! dey mould me to be a better nurse.

thank you nurses! thank you doctors!

thank you patients' both sweet and nasty.

for all of you had shown me de meaning of nursing and had

groom me to be a better person then yesterday.

n i'll bring the lesson i've learnt to life and whil cherish all moments with all of you..

BEST best BEST!!

For now' im cleaning and running errands for home..

ouh yes' SELAMAT BERPUASE TO ALL MY MUSLiMS FRIENDS!

no more vulgarities ekh..

maki2 one corner ok!

no gossip2 jugak.

lepas buka' gossip la krg..

during' tahan okie!!

i love you all=)

n maybe i'll be back with my siti's delight team.

im just awaiting de time dey need me. hee..

so im still single

n guys never fail to hurt me.

ouh wells' moving on=')

tommorow shall go hunting for all my baking needs.

hopefully i'll get everything..

for now' i shall watch or go to sleep.

selamat malam kawan2..

it will take me time

to move on.

i'll try.

via; inthemidstofthinking

cause to me everyone is beautiful in their own way.
so if you just had a bad day'
SMiLE cause youre worth more den dat grumpy face.

anws' its TGIF today.
so today everyone should be smiling..



i cant wait for 630PM
so i can get ready and change and go to the airport.


cause im goin ja ja ja JAKARTA!!
wuuutts..

though im goin for just 3days
its still worth de break!


im goin to shop for my cloths for rayer
n shop for any other thing that catches my eye.
hee..





take care dear people'
love nisa..=))

note to self';

you're a

confuse

girl.

Look Closer - A Nurse's Reply
Liz Hogben


What do we, you ask, what do we see ?
Yes, we are thinking when looking at thee!
We may seem to be hard when we hurry and fuss,
But there's many of you and too few of us.
We would like far more time to sit by you and talk,
To bath you and feed you and help you to walk,
To hear of your lives and the things you have done;
Your childhood, your husband, your daughter, your son,
But time is against us, there's too much to do-
Patients too many and nurses too few.
We grieve when we see you so sad and alone,
With nobody near you, no friends of your own.
We feel all your pain, and know of your fear
That nobody cares now your end is so near.

But nurses are people with feelings as well,
And when we're together, you'll often hear tell
Of the dearest old Gran in the very end bed,
And the lovely old Dad, and the things that he said,
We speak with compassion and love, and feel sad
When we think of yours and the joy that you've had.
When the time has arrived for you to depart,
You leave us behind with an ache in our heart.

When you sleep the long sleep, no more worry or care,
There are other old people, and we mist be there.
So please understand if we hurry and fuss--
There are many of you and too few of us.

a very sweet and real poem by a nurse.

yes yes.. well said in a poem.=)

side note' my fav uncle passed away yesterday.

now no more uncle to disturb..

no more kacau2.

uncle! gua rindu lu la!

lu mana pegi..

*sobx*

n my patient who i admitted died 2day morning..

now no need to advice

'uncle' you have to turn turn.. later your pantat got red red..'

*SOBS*

please please' no more last offices tomorrow please.

doin in-charge 2moro. so do good to me ok ward 48?

ok nytes ya'll..

i'm being the old me. whoever who wanna

say anything be my guest.

cause people like you'

dont matter to me.

make it bigger if you wish to see..

today was a pretty wet typical saturday.

where all plans backfired

and guys are just a pain in de arse..

but side note..

my roti john cheese @ changi made my day.

blessed to have a family who knows just how to make me smile..

N goin on to FB and seeing the best wall post ever.

made my day really2 awesome..

its just nice to know that im blessed with wonderful people around me

whom i noe will be dere to catch me.

n people who loves me..

i swear i could have teared more.

esp after watchin a video linked by my bro..

SYTYCD video dance on breast cancer..

talkin bout cancer.

everyday hearing someone suffering from cancer

is a real pain..

patients who are in pain crying for help.

along de corridors are just relatives crying away.

trying their best not to show their love ones(de patient) their emotions..

having to clean up someone who pass away of cancer.

as young as 23 yrs old.

its real sad..

so' be thankful for whatever you have now people..

cherish those around you.

love them whole heartedly...

n if possible..

show it..

so again..

Thank you family..

Thank you ADDA' Kak Nana N Diana..

Thank you roti john cheese..

for these 3 things made my day special

n makin me smile..

for i love you all much2..

im going to sleep now.

experementing on a new cream cheese brownie CM..

nytes..

i gave you a chance

you blew it.

Tomorrow shall be de start of my clinical postings.

1month of gerontology @ SGH ward 48

followed by

3months of PRCP @ hopefully de ward ive asked for.

i really hope my skills are not lost.

since i have long to be out on attachments.

well' at least i still can fit in my 2unis...

de rest are all too short n tight fitting.

see la' last time miang wad..

sigh..

Well' all de best to those doing their attachments 2moro..

see you in de hospt peopLe!

Love Love..

now im getting

worried.

Insouciant. Ephemeral Infatuation

(via; purplefagottree)

"Go easy on yourself, for the outcome of all affairs is determined by Allah’s decree. If something is meant to go elsewhere, it will never come your way, but if it is yours by destiny, from you it cannot flee "

– Umar bin al Khattab [Radi-Allahu anhu]

Had lunch with family minus 2.

Lil bro ask me how many ex-bf i had.

so i said 6' n my elder bro was happy dat he was not as bad as me.

-__-''

ouh' terima kasih yer..

arman: nan' youre too small to even noe what is love..

adnan: yes' i noe!

arman: so wad is it?

adnan: Love is an infatuation feeling dat two people have..

nisa: no' dat is not love. infatuation is de feeling i had for dat 6' i have yet to find love.

i was expecting symphaty? but i got a massive laughter from de table.

phuck..

i feel so good.

heh..

ouh wells.

when for retail theraphy with my mom after lunch.

i fell in love with alot of things but i have yet to buy dem.

so 2 pairs of jeans or a pink sling bag?

2moro shall go starbucks with addasyg.

people have been clever-ly asking me out de previous week.

cause by mon' i'll be pack.

which means' no more time nisa.

sighs.

ok' nytes ya'll..

wherever you are' whenever it's right
you'll come out of nowhere
and into my life..
-Michael Buble'

Fetch lil bro from school today.
Since im no longer workin and waiting for attachment..
dad keeps me occupied by giving me this task.
which im not complainin..

since dere was no space along de roadside'
i had to park and walk.
so with my selekehness' everyone taught that i was a maid.
ok whatever..

so instead of everyday looking at motorist'
i look at de pri skul kids 2day.
n ive realise how heavy each n everyone bag is.
seriously' what do dey bring?
you noe' kids who are way shorter' n smaller den me
carrying a bag which i dont even think i can carry..

my secondary schol bag was half de size.
dont mention tertiary'
i only bring a bag to school so that my mom believes that im headin to skul.
thank god for tertiary lockers!

ive ask my lil bro bout lockers.
he said there was but dey are not really allowed to put most of de things dere.
so why lovker again?
ouh wells..

ouh' n tallin bout my lil bro..

im am so happy on how my lil bro cake turn out to be.

my experiment was successful! alhamdullillah..

anyone up to be my next experiment? =P

attachments up next week.
final lap final lap.
n yes' i can do it. *smiles nervously*
so' surgical stockings' black sweater n stationaries are on my list.
n maybe a bag? hee..

ok' nytes!

tell me to go
n i will go.

(via weheartit by suicide-bee)

"They love you but they are not your lover

They care for you but they are not from your family

They are ready to shair you pain but they are not in your blood relations.

They are your FRIENDS

True friends scold like a DAD

Cares like a MOM

Teases like a SISTER

Irritates like a BROTHER

and finally loves you more then a LOVER."

sent by my dear friend Nasran'

who loves sending random msgs whenever wherever.

n hell yeah' it makes me smile.

thank you Piglet, you made my day!=))

ok' nisa needs to sleep now.

so that she can be fully awake while she works admin tomorrow..

im so feeling2 de akak akak admin!=)

n dat equals to answering all calls which are expected to be from de malay community..

'hi' boleh saya bantu?'
lar.. helps alot alot please??

i think im just gonna write a script in de morn after stock take.

yes yes. dat will be my *things-to-do*

ok selamat malam semua!

did i mention' i love you all? *trallalaa*

screw you minah'

thank god your mat is

sweet enough to apologise

for your wrong doings. bad minah bad!

*bluekx!

(via fuckyeahgirlythings )

i noe i have seen the sprinkles in

production room de other time.

shall try doing it de next time'

when donuts are on de list of TODO.

wonder wad is up 2moro.

besides cake modular #o1.

=\

side note'

had dinner with my mom at arnodls.

im still loving the buns..

buns bun bun bun bun!

after seeing much couples.

couldnt resist to stop my mouth from askin my mom

how she knew my dad was de one..

so she just told me her wild funny love story.

n i just said

"mak oi' kecoh ar mama. your story can make drama noe.."

n i just told her bout de guy im thinkin off.

hah' ok sungguh random.

off to bed' shall wake up early to make jemput jemput..

i noe how to make noe' heh..

sweetest dream love!=D

Why cant i give in and say

height dosent matter?

SMILE!=))

(via; 29daysofesc )

SmiLe=))

"Smile tho' your heart is aching,
Smile Even though it's breaking,
When there are clouds in the sky- You'll get by,
If you Smile through your fear and sorrow,
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun come shining through- For you.

Light up your face with gladness,
Hide ev'ry trace of sadness,
Altho' a tear may be ever so near,
That's the time (thats the time) you must keep on trying,
Smile- What's the use of crying,
You'll find that life is still worthwhile,
If you just smile.

Ohhh Oooh Yeah

That's the time (thats the time) you must keep on trying,
Smile- What's the use of crying,
You'll find that life is still worthwhile,
If you just smile.

Smile tho' your heart is aching,
Smile Even though it's breaking,
When there are clouds in the sky- You'll get by,

That's the time (thats the time) you must keep on trying,
Smile- What's the use of crying,
You'll find that life is still worthwhile,
If you just
You'll find that life is still worthwhile,
If you just smile. "

-Glee Cast

wipe your tear'

stop worrying.

n just smile..

smile for de people you noe care for you..

lots of love sweetS!=)

i hope one day we can

bump into one

another.

watch Dear John with cuzin cause dey canceled my picnic.
ok gals' you officially owe me a meet up!

anws'
de show was awesomely nice!=)
very nice romantic love show.
who captures a young man with an autistic dad and a sweet looking lady.
young man who serves his country by being a soldier out of de uS.
but basically like all love shows' guy n gal lives happily ever after.
=\

ouh well' 3 out of 5!
n guys' dont forget to lend a shoulder to your gal.
n bring tissues!=P

throughout de movie'
i taught about my brother
whos serving his ns in brunei.
eish' i miss him la ok..

n after THE PUPIL on ch5.
there was a short advert on army.
whee.. nice nice..

somehow' dont ask why.
but i do feel proud of spore armed forces!
somehow makes me feel so protected if ever something might happen.
n if any of you think' that nothing will happen.
read on..


"SINGAPORE (AFP) - – An unidentified terrorist group is planning attacks against oil tankers in the Malacca Strait, one of the world's busiest shipping lanes, the Singapore Navy and a shipping association said Thursday."

"Singapore, one of Asia's most affluent cities and a regional base for thousands of multinational companies, is a prime target for attacks by militant groups, officials have said. "

read on at link-> yahoo

so do you think it will ever happen one day?

maybe?

hopefully not.

ok im done.

work @ 10AM.

n i officially gotten my mission for 2moro.

10oMuFfins.

whee..

10o will be like nothing compared to 450 last week for MOE fair.

thank god.=)

ok' outs.

good night korang!

sweet loves!=D

i too love

my dad

=)

(via' wishfulthinking)

finally online.

m quite busy with work these days.
means meeting up is plan in advance.


im having alot of line up next week.
but modular classes will begin next week.
all 4modular.=\
n havin a new production member is no fun..
yeah' cikgu found a substitute to replace me.
unfair! can i not go?

i really love dis job' though sometimes mr lazy bug enters me.=P

ouh wells'
i have to get my mind straight to nursing.

i AM a nurse! NURSING is my life!!
=\ yeah right..



ouh n syg.
aku tau la kau one year older'
tapi respect to your patners to mesti masi ade la ok..
sorry' im de kinda person who judge someone by their first look.
den is up to you to do things to change my mindset.


i may look damn young n can be very noisy n unreal..
yes i do sing n dance n sometimes sing nursery rhymes.
but dat dosent mean im a no brainer you dummie!
youre wearing something dat represent your religion.
please tolong takmau malu name kiter can? please ekh..


you look up when someone say hello' n you ask questions when you dont know..
ouh n yes' you laugh along n have fun!

itu pun kene ajar per.
sheesh..




ok da'
i dont feel any better but atleast is a big sighh..
heh..


ok' i cant wait for whatever is happening tomorrow.
hopefully it'll be good=)



ok my post panjang.
time for you to shudup now nisa..



okaesss.. banyak seh ok. hehehe..

kae' toodles.
selamat malam semua
=D

'your gal dapat tahu'

you mati tau..'

watch out

girls.

(via; matacolors )

"Memories are what warm you up from the inside.

But they’re also what tear you apart."

Finally sat for de last paper.

though it hurts seeing my frens over n done with

im happy for them.

truly!

n somehow i realise theres nothing to be upset about.

cause everything happen for a reason..

im happy with how life is..

im having de best job ever.

my hobby turned into my work.

n dats de best thing i could ever ask for=)

on a note.

harizAH.

it took me a long time to realise i had feelings for someone..

though i just found out that i had no longer had his love.

its my lose'

all de best to you='))

cause somehow you

were always on

my mind

(via; wishfulthinking )

-To her Lil bro who is learning the meaning of rejection:

"Rejection is part and parcel of life. Even if it takes a whole in your pocket or eating ice-cream and junk food everyday for a whole week' you've gotta face de fact and move on"

- from his sister

going off to airport at 1PM later.

sending my bro back to brunei..

sigh!

irritants goin home.

=(

ouh wells' he'll be back in may!=)

somehow'

im getting irritated of getting to know people..

did i say dat already?

malas la nk layan'

'you single? you kerje mane skrg? you ade berape adik beradiq?'

n de best question out of all de question

'what's your height?'

ekh' pantat la' tk penting la!

eisshhh..

ouh wells' its all about me now..

yes' my name anisa aje.

no nur no siti no "H" or no extra "N"

ok i think im rembling'

cause im currently piss with people msgin me.

if i dont reply' dat'll be rude.

but its getting irritating' how?

i smiled when i receive

your random

night msg.

"There you have it young love
Full of promise Full of hope
Ignorant to reality"

-Valentine's Day

The best line from the movie=P

watch the movie with my lovely date!

heh' thanks for de lovely day.

n listening to my every whines and lil grumpiness here n dere.

that's what friends are for!=))

movie was pretty awesome.

was a movie on one day' vdae.

2 of 5!=)

ouh' n i failed my mask fitting.

heh.

so how?

SARS no need work k?

ok go!=)

1030AM 2moro.

nytes!

NO' You dont bring down

one's flaw just because

you get intermidated

by her.

(via SmudgeStick; butterflygurl17)

"but sometimes were so focus on finding our happy ending
we dont learn how to read the signs
how to tell the one who wants us from the one who dont
the one who'll stay from the ones who'll leave"

-He's Just Not That Into You

thanks to my 2nd bro

who have just return from brunei for a week.

i watch the movie again..

did i say the movie was really2 awesome??

so kene can?

hee.

when im having this kinda moments.

never take me out..

i'll soothe everything by burnin a hole in my wallet.

tralala..

that said'

i love my new tankini' boxers' dress n Tee..

next up shoes n shades..=))

ok' selamat malam smua..

i have a date with my lecturer to test on de mask

which may help in preventing me from

getting any airborne sickness..

which obviusly i will fail.

succkyy..

k. nyts.

cause youre just another

typical guy.

(via; weheartit)

"Dont make someone a priority if they only make you an option"

i just join this group on facebook!

heh..

dats just out of random..

really..

uhh' went to borders and found de lovely wedding planner book..

bought it for de super-organise, UN-messy fren of mine' diana.

glad she love it.=)

psst..
i want like dat when i get married also ok people? heh.

side track.

my beloved cikgu siti mastura of mine'

spelled my name anEsa.

wah' best ar cikgu..

thx ekh..

-__-''

ok done'

skuls up 2moro.

turnin in for now.

good night all!

her VS the past.

you be the

judge..

i am finally done with my fruit tart.
now my mom will be happy and one nagging session down.

which makes my cikgu upset
cause i have yet to do her puff patry..

2moro's my off' shall do it den ok cikgu.
heh..



off to pastry#o5.

toodles ya'll.

two is better

then one.

done with 115 cuppie cakes

n 70 sWeet lil MufFins..

sedap la ok!=D

ok' cuppies was too sweet

but muffins were awesomely nice! wheEe..

next project will be my cakes!

ouh' my heart shape cakes.

ok quick!

who wants to be my next experiment?

ekh' wait'

arent im suppose to be doing pastry?

ok momy' promise.

monday i will do de fruit tarts..

yeak YEAK yeak..

ok' toodles..

2moro will be another tiring day!

ouh' n btw'

i have a new part time job

my dream job!

say lalallaala..

something's bothering my mind

nak cakap' tak nak cakap

ok?

quiz QUIZ quiz

Graduated High School. (if high school is sec school=P)
Kissed someone.
Smoked cigarettes.
Got so drunk you passed out.
Rode every ride at an amusement park.
Collected something really stupid.
Gone to a rock concert.
Helped someone.
Gone fishing.
Watched four movies in one night.
Gone long periods of time with out sleep.
Lied to someone.
Snorted cocaine.
Failed a class.
Smoked weed.
Dealt drugs.
Taken a college level course.
Been in a car accident.
Been in a tornado.
Done hard drugs (i.e. ecstasy, heroin, crack, meth, acid).
Watched someone die.
Been to a funeral.
Burned yourself.
Ran a marathon.
Your parents got divorced.
Cried yourself to sleep.
Spent over $200 in one day.
Flown on a plane.
Cheated on someone.
Been cheated on.
Written a 10 page letter.
Gone skiing.
Been sailing.
Cut yourself.
Had a best friend.
Lost someone you loved.
Shoplifted something. (hush hush now)
Been to jail.
Had detention.
Skipped school.
Got in trouble for something you didn’t do.
Stolen books from the library.(kinda)
Dropped out of school.
Been in a mental hospital. (attachment and not admitted)
Watched the “Harry Potter” movies.
Had an online diary.
Fired a gun.
Gambled in a casino.
Had a yard sale.
And a lemonade stand.
Actually made money at the lemonade stand.
Been in a school play.
Been fired from a job.
Taken a lie detector test.
Swam with dolphins.
Gone to sea world.
Attempted suicide.
Voted for American/Australian Idol/ Singapore idol
Written poetry.
Read more than 20 books a year.
Gone to Europe.
Loved someone you couldn’t have.
Wondered about your sexuality.
Used a coloring book over age 12. (mental hospt)
Had surgery.
Had stitches.
Taken a taxi.
Seen the Washington Monument.
Had more than 5 IM’s/online conversations going at once.
Overdosed.
Had a drug or alcohol problem.
Been in a fist fight.
Suffered any form of abuse.
Had a hamster.
Petted a wild animal.
Used a credit card.
Gone surfing in California.
Did “spirit day” at school.
Dyed your hair.
Got a tattoo.
Had something pierced.
Got straight A’s. (Well I dont think PSLE counts)
Been on the Honor Roll.
Known someone with HIV or AIDS.
Taken pictures with a webcam.
Started a fire.
Had a party while your parents weren’t home.
Gotten caught having a party while they were gone.

taken by adda's blog.

credits=)

(via; WishfulThinking )

i use to fold papers and make them into planes,

but it never can fly' n seriously i wonder why..

you noe notti kids in skul'

somehow they manage to fly it.

sighs.

sidetrack' FYP is over.

which means skuls out!

shall wait for 26th Feb for now..

anyone have a job or something for me to do?

please say yes..

heh..

ok' good nyts all..

though i will have trouble sleepin lar..

eishh..

fed up tau'

gasak korang kae'

nisa da malas.

(via ; wishfulthinking )

"And in the end, it's not about who's skinnier, or who's prettier. It's about who can survive through all the name calling, and dirty looks. It's about who has the strenght not to care."

(via ; poeticheartache)

im yawning. n yawning..

but when i get to bed..

i'll toss and turn

n cant get to bed..

though im super duperly tired..

how? how? how?

help leh.

tssk..

dere's always a gift

fot those who

wait right?

right...

(via; wishfulthinking)

Dear Friends;

i LovE you.

and had always loved you guys..

thanks for everything=))

ps.

i just wrote this

for fun.

(via; kari-shma)

"People often say that 'beauty is in the eyes of the beholder,' and I say that the most liberating thing about beauty is realizing that you are the beholder. This empowers us to find beauty in places where others have not dared to look, including inside ourselves"

-Salma Hayek (via QuoteBook )

how i wish life could be as care-free..

where everyday can be a sunday filled with

kite-flying' baking' singing' laughin' n just fooling around.

if only life could be as simple.

where love is just a simple game

when you dont need to find de one'

n was born knowing who is HE.

well' god is fair.

de world is round.

if its my turn to get de biter-sourneSs'

den bring it on..

ouh swells'

content with wad im having now=)

selamat malam semua..

why don't we just end

de alleged rumors

for now.

via : (raindropsonredroses)

de pic says it alL?

im still wondering what really happen..

well.

i have to just get out of de comfort zone'

of having dem still dere after meetups..

harsh dose of reality'

guys do leave you after de 2nd date..

when everything seems to be well' things changes..

still wondering why..

enough of ranting.

how i wish i could type every single thing here.

but its just not coming out..

hak'dush!!

but nevertheless'

i thank all de guys i met.

ive learnt something from each of them..

n somehow..

my phobias keep on piling up.

n de self-esteEm isSue??

*pFfTtt~

N i'll remember you

cause youre de

first.=)